What shall I talk about today?

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I really don’t have anything on my mind right now. My spirit was troubled today greatly and I needed to be alone so I asked Jeremy and his brother to go I and drove to Mentor and back. I talked to God and I was crying because I still need strength and healing. I’m a weak vessel right now and if I’m to do my calling I have to be strong without fear and weakness, but strength, courage and the Word of God.

I asked God to forgive me for my sins naming them all and I asked him to deliver me from every hindrance that remained on me. I thanked him for his multitude of blessings and I began to worship him in song and spirit. That’s when God sent the Holy Spirit on me again…it was like a strong jolt of power in my belly…nothing like anything I ever felt before except the other day when I received him on the freeway. After that I was consumed once again.

When I got back Jeremy got in the car and my hands were shaky, I felt a little weak and I asked him to drive because I couldn’t. I just let the Spirit work on me.

I’m feeling a little better now…I believe I feel even better tomorrow. I just finished reading a few excerpts on sins and confessing them to God and repentance.

I don’t really feel like talking about my day I’m burnt out and tired…I just want to sleep.

Oh Yeah…I saw Superman Returns today.

Good movie..Yippe [Yawn]

God Bless.

I can remember when I was in my Mom’s church and her pastor was talking about how he saw flecks of lights surrounding this man whom he said was a man that was truly anointed by God. I always thought it was something wrong with my vision because I’ve seen the lights. I’ve even seen them descend into the church unless it is something wrong with my eyes.

I told my pastor about it and he said I need to pray to God and ask him what he wants from me because there is a reason why those lights are following you everywhere. He said God will come to you in a dream and tell you what he wants from you. So I went home and prayed expecting to have a dream that same night….No dream. Nothing I thought that was from God anyway.

Years went by and I actually forgot about my prayer request. I continued to see the lights every now and then, but I tried to just ignore them and go on with my day. Then I started having recurring dreams of casting demons from people or houses. I wrote a blog post earlier about these (Click Here to read the post and details of the dreams) dreams. I also told my former pastor (You know who), but of coarse someone who may not either be actually anointed and called by God or has no knowledge and or belief in evil spirits would disregard it and think I’m crazy.

Then the craziest thing happens!…I get delivered by God and now I’m being trained to do what I do in the dreams. I never thought in a thousand years I’d have that type of anointing. I never felt the Holy Spirit on me until last month and man is it amazing…all you can do is weep and thank God! Today I was in my car praising God and singing sweetly to him and while I was on the freeway I was consumed by the Holy Spirit…didn’t see that coming…Praise God! I felt so good and I was in a state of shock, all I could do was just say “WOW!” to myself.

I’ve already assisted in 2 deliverances with my spiritual mother. I’m still afraid. I don’t know what to do. I always ask the Holy Spirit to tell me what to do. She had to leave for Montana yesterday so I spent my day with her. I’m going to miss her. My spiritual father(her son) is still here though.

Well I gotta get off the dial-up I’m expecting my spiritual father to call me.