Yeah, I’m about to go purchase that good old mouse pen today. It’s about time so I can start working on my Manga website. I’m going to actually change the layout for my Manga site completely too! As soon as I get that mouse pen you can say “Bye-Bye” to that sorry looking layout and “Hello” to a way better looking layout that is fully original. I’ve finally found my style and it’s much more professional looking! Not some childish looking layout. I mean I’m 23 years-old not 17. I may change the color scheme to a peachy and yellowish color. I’m not sure just yet. I was looking at some actual Manga Fansites and I noticed that 90% of them were using blackish color schemes…YUCK! I hate black. It’s so dark and gloomy looking. That’s why I didn’t want black furniture in my home. I wanted brown furniture instead because brown is warm and inviting. I don’t care for white furniture eithier. White is boring and cold. It reminds me of being in the hospital. The only thing I like white is whites roses. Because white roses to me are unique and pure. Everyone gets red roses which are bright, vivid and passionate, but white roses are calm, sincere and tranquil. That’s why I love them so much and I prefer them over the red ones. *Sigh* Those roses are so gorgeous, sitting there in my clear glass vase on my kitchen table, so beautiful all twelve of them. I wish they could stay like that forever.

Well back to my mousepen. I can’t wait to get it so I can start drawing some really good pictures. I hate drawing with that mouse. That sucks and the edges are always so jagged. I want smooth edges like the one in professional manga art. I was going to buy Manga Studio, but decided against it. Why pay $50 for some software to show me something I already know how to do.

I am suppose to wash my hair today, but I might wait until tommorow. I really wanted to work on some new graphics for my Manga website. I’ve been writing the story that goes along with some of the characters in my website. This site is the only way I’ll be able to publish those stories that I’ve had in my head for years full of adventure and fantasy. To be honest Sam’s Manga is the most important site to me. My blog is how I vent my feelings and ideas, my Strawberry Web Builder is just a way of offering a free service to people and Vanilla Sugar Templates is a way to make some extra cash every month to pay for my website. (Just one sale a month pays for my website)

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Didn’t do too much today…

Argued with my cousin because he was trying to push his beliefs on me and he had the nerve to raise his voice at me in MY house! Then he left and called still ranting and raving about what he believed. Talking about Lucifer is the Devil. I did my research and found that the word Lucifer is actually a misinterpeted word in the Bible. The translators failed to include the “i” in the actual word eill which became ell and they never checked the Hebrew manuscripts. The word Lucifer is actually the word “howl” and in Isiah God is not talking about Satan, but about the king of Bablyon. Anyways who really cares anyway. It was a misinterpertation of the word. He was getting all “big chested” huffing and puffing about Satan being an Angel of God in the beginning, but how when Jesus said himself he was a murder from the BEGINNING! So now you’re calling Jesus a liar?

Here he goes again…

I told him that I don’t really care. I shared what I’ve learned with you and if you don’t accept that then that’s your choice. I really don’t care and I’m not going to force you to believe it because if you don’t then you don’t. You can yell, rant and rave all you want, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to accept what you are saying. I really don’t agree with a whole lot of stuff he does.

I mean he says he’s a man of God, but he told me God told him to walk around in his apartment complex naked. Then he said something like he would get a young girl or whomever, get “butt naked” with them and then set the judgement on them.

Now not only does that sound immoral and wrong to me, but who are you to judge? The Bible strictly teaches us not to do that. He prays for God to kill people that speak against him. Jesus had many persecutors and not one time did he ask God to kill them.

I told him people can change and be forgiven, but you want to know what he said? If God said they are going to Hell the they are going to Hell, like they don’t have a chance for redemption. Like they don’t have a chance to repent. You have a chance to repent and live right until the day you breathe your very last breathe. That, is BIBICAL. I don’t believe God said anything like that. God is merciful and full of love and compassion. He is love and if can have mercy on you so will he have on others.

I don’t believe God condones in people sinning to get people to turn their lives around. God hates sin.

I told him that God says for us to have no graven image. This includes all statues, stuffed animals, dolls, etc. He kept going on about idols. I told him God doesn’t care if you idolize it or not he says NO GRAVEN IMAGES. But when he heard that he accepted the word to be truth, but still said if he has a daughter he will buy dolls for her and that he will still have statues in his home to make it look nice. Talking about you have to be prayed up.

No! God said NO GRAVEN IMAGE. Not no graven image UNLESS you are prayed up. You can’t twist the word or try to get around it because you want to have fun and do what you want to do. Eithier you be obedient to his commands or not.

He thinks he knows everything and that no one can tell him anything. That’s really his problem. So all I can do is pray and keep stepping.

You get what you can get and you keep right on stepping…

I believe God puts people there so I can get certain things they have to offer and after I’ve gotten what he wanted me to learn from them then it’s time to keep on moving. I got what I needed from my cousin, which was to learn how to talk with Jeremy and open up and tell my feelings and pray on them. Other than that all that other stuff…I’m cool.

I mean talking to me about sex, masturbation and getting “butt naked” with you is sinful. God says to put away with foolish talk. And today when he made that get butt naked with him comment that sounded like a form of incest! Also why in the world do you remember and are meditating on me saying I need to go to Fitworks to firm up my butt? Why is my “butt” on YOUR mind?

Then he told me that when he has kid’s he’s going to buy a porno and watch it with them to teach them a lesson. That’s immoral, sinful and wrong. Pornography is full of sin and can introduce a spirit of lust to the viewers. Do you think Jesus would sit down and watch a porno? Hell Nawl!

He talks about me speaking against God’s annointing because I do not believe Satan was ever an angel. What about you? Do you not realize that I am also one of God’s annointing? And you speak against my beliefs, but I’m not going to raise my voice at you because you disagree. I will say what I need to say and then that’s it. I’ll remain humble.

After all that this man knocked on my door…well actually before all the above took place and was looking for someone. Then he started talking about Jehovah witnesses.

Man what a day…

I told him, no I don’t believe what you all believe because there’s a spirit of error and they do not believe in the Trinity. Here he goes showing me scriptures. I showed him some and here comes my cousin loud talking over people. He wouldn’t even give the man a chance to talk. Not even me for that matter. If you want people to listen to what you are saying you have to talk to them with respect. That man ended up leaving after a while. I got so tired of my cousin talking over me I went and sat down at my computer and continued with my studies with Jeremy showing him what I had learned. While my cousin was out in the hall talking over that man. I couldn’t even hear myself speak. Then here comes my cousin all up in the mix with his opinions and beliefs.

So who cares anymore believe it or not. I don not care. I have my own soul to worry about.

*Sigh*

Jeremy bought me a dozen of white roses. I love white roses they are so beautiful. That was so sweet, it just makes me want to melt in his arms. I didn’t even expect them. I was working on his website since mine are pretty much done until I get that mousepen I want…

Well, anyways I did his website over because I hated the way it looked and I want our ministry to blow these corrupted pastors, teachers and minstries off the face of the Earth! Something happened the other day that gave me that push I needed to get on The grind with God. God really lit me up the other day, I believe that was confirmation to do what needs to be done. So now I am fasting once again so I can do what needs to be done to expose the truth and/or destroy the liars.

To see what I’ve done so far go to Godsvision-Online.com.

I really love that man…and the white roses are beautiful.

I’m too tired to write today…I’m going to bed…

[YAWN]

Goodnight.

I changed the look of Vanilla Sugar Templates today. I wanted a different look and I didn’t really care for the sidebar. It looks totally different now. It’s not a one page website eithier. I broke it up into different pages. I’m content with the look now. I wasn’t content with the look before because the sidebar. The banner was pretty cool because of the way I blended it, but oh well. I have a new banner that looks better with a nicer blend.

I actually added the Strawberry Web Builder help forum and the grid tutorial. I was being lazy and procrastinating, but it’s up now.

Today I did nothing. Worked on my website, went to bored.com waited for Jeremy, argued with him and sat at home. Well I guess I did do something. Man, I need to get my car fixed so I can go somewhere. If my car was fixed I would’ve went out last night. Instead I was sitting on the computer customizing the graphics for my forum until 3am. That really sucked. I just worked on the graphics until I got tired, since I didn’t get to do anything. I really need to get my car fixed. I’m tired of sitting at home all day. I want to buy a membership to FitWorks, but what’s the point of buying a membership if I can’t get there.

The funny thing is it only cost about 60 bucks to get my car fixed.

So I guess you’re wondering what’s the holdup…

It’s my alternator…And since it’s that I can’t move the car to the shop unless I pay $250 to get it towed. I haven’t paid my car note for that car since October…I know I’m wrong, but why keep wasting money on a car that doesn’t move? Why spend $200 on a car that doesn’t work and then sit at home and keep waiting until I don’t have any bills (which won’t happen) and then pay the car note? Maybe I just use my income tax and pay the whole damn thing off.

So anyways, I’ve been at home all day starring at the four walls while Jeremy’s at his Moms house. He then comes home and starts an argument. Then he wants a kiss and when I don’t want to he says I’m mean. How do you start argueing with someone and piss them off and then try to kiss and touch them and when they don’t want to you can them mean and bring up the past. I was like “Whatever…go to hell with that mess”. So I got dressed and combed my hair and he continues to complain. He asked me where I wanted to go, but why ask? When I wanted to go out we didn’t cause you didn’t want to so why ask me what I want to do? It doesn’t matter what I want to do because if I want to do something that you don’t want to do then we just won’t do it. So what’s the point?

So he said then we’ll do nothing. I said okay and got back on the computer. I’m tired of getting dressed to do nothing. Yesterday I got dressed in this cute outfit, did my hair really pretty, put makeup on and everything so we can go out and you want to know where we went? To the mall for maybe 30 minutes and then we came home. Yeah, I need to get my car fixed.

Don’t you hate when your eating something and you bite your cheek by accident? Man that hurt’s! I’ve done that like 3 times this week! It makes me want to get my wisdom teeth removed…if my wisdom teeth is responsible for biting my cheek that is. That really hurts…oww!

We’ll I don’t have anything else to say right now. My cheek hurts, I need to go wash my hair and that’s that.

Maybe later I’ll be more in a blogging mood. Right now my cheek hurts.

I haven’t updated my blog in a couple of day’s because I’ve been so busy doing other stuff. I worked on the Strawberry Web Builder yesterday and added a table tutorial to the HTML section. I also found a new website called marapets.com. It’s a pretty cool site. It’s some what like neopets, just you get a character that you can create along with a virtual pet. You get your own clothes a house, and a shop. The site has games, a forum, avatars, etc. It also have clubs like the guilds on neopets. The only difference is you have to earn like 2800 points to buy a club because they claim that space is limited.

They also have marasites, where you can create your own website free (with no blocks on outside links like neopets). The only thing is you can only use HTML. No PHP and CSS is limited which sucks. I created a simple one page website with a banner and *uck* a table for my layout. I hate using tables to do my layouts. That’s stupid because tables are really for dispaying data in cells. I do however use tables every once in a while to line up data. Like in my Strawberry Web Builder tutorials, but only rarely.

Besides that marapets is a great way to get traffic to my site. I checked my awstats after being on marapets for one day and the Strawberry Web Builder got bookmarked by several visitors! So that’s great to finally start getting visitors. Now I’ll have to check my email weekly to see if anyone needs help. I’m also adding a forum to the Strawberry Web Builder for HTML, PHP and CSS help, but not until later. I have the forum already made, but I have to customize it and I’ve been really lazy when it comes to that. Maybe I’ll do it tommorow…

One more thing to announce is that I’m finished with VOC Rehab testing…Yippee! No more appointments for now anyways.

Note to self: Call Dr Weinstein tommorow and make a new appointment.

I missed my appointment with Cathy today. She switched my appointment from 4 to 5pm. I told the receptionist when they changed it that there was going to be a possibility that I couldn’t make it in. I still had to pick Jeremy up from work at 5:45pm. So I called this morning and cancelled the appointment. I just knew there would be no way of making it.

Oh! Jeremy did something very sweet. He came home yesterday, knocked on the door and I told Elijah to answer it because I knew it was him and I was cooking. Elijah said “It’s your birthday Mommy.” I was like “What?” very puzzled why he would say that. When I went to the door I saw a red heart-shaped balloon and a big peachy colored plant with 2 chocolates in the center of it. I though that was really sweet. Then he knocked a second time and left some cookies…

…Speaking of sweets, Destin is only 11 months old, but somehow he keeps getting cupcakes off the table. I pushed the cupcakes to the center of the kitchen table, but some how he manages to get them. He got 2 yesterday and today he got a hold of 1. Then after devouring that one he tried to get another and when he couldn’t he’ll throw a fit! I just don’t know how?? He’s not that tall. I would be doing something like reading or on the computer surfing the net and then Destin would get really quiet. Then I’ll hear him doing his famous I’m eating something good noise: “mmm…Yum, yum,yum.” And I’ll turn around and he is covered in green icing and cake! LOL

Well back to my sweet Jeremy….

The cookies were good, the plant was nice, but the chocolates…YUCK! I hate dark chocolate. Whoever invented dark chocolate should be flogged and hanged…just kidding, but man that stuff is nasty. Even Jeremy “the Chocolate Lover” can’t stand that stuff. I guess he didn’t read the wrapper, but still that was sweet of him.

Today I found a new website that’s fun to poke around on when your bored. It’s called Bored.com. It has all kinds of humorous and quite interesting sites and activities to steer you from boredom. This one site they had was a site that you could call some one from the computer and send them a message. I sent one to my sister. On the caller ID it read “Evil Witch” and when she answered it, it said “The evil witch is watching you.” She didn’t know who it was and blocked the number. I called maybe 10 minutes later her and she answered the phone and I said “Hey.” she said “Hi” and the I asked “Did the Evil Witch call you?” She said yeah and was cursing and her friends was laughing at her. I just busted out laughing.

Elijah went to the dentist today so tommorow I have to schedule his appointment to have his teeth pulled out….

Man it’s a small world….

And that’s all I’ll say about that.

I worked on the Strawberry Web Builder today. I added a HTML colorchart yesterday which I might do over on Thursday and make it bigger with all 216 colors. Today I added a simple HTML anatomy tutorial and a gradient tutorial. Tommorow I’ll add one for making grids. I always try to make sure that if I’m using stuff like grids, gradients and the like in my tutorials that I explain how to make them. So people can use them as well. I think I’ll add a favicon tutorial too. Then I’ll have to update the overview page and add the term for favicon to the Definitions.

 I can’t wait to get a mouse pen from Micro center. As soon as I get one I’ll be able to start working on Sam’s Manga. I really want my graphics to look good on Sams Manga, so I’m waiting to work on that site until I get the mouse pen. I might even get a scanner too, but first the mouse pen.

Well gotta go. I need to cook a quick dinner.

Yesterday I would’ve finished my post, but Jeremy and I decided to go to Don Plabo’s yesterday for dinner. He wanted to drink an alcoholic beverage for the first time so I decided to get one too. I never had a Long Island Ice Tea so I ordered it to see what it was like. I’ve heard so many good things about that drink and when I went to Cedar Point this summer the people in the Adult Bubble pool were ordering eithier a Pina Colada (had that), or Long Island Ice Tea’s (never had…). I orderd some other drink when I was there that was really fruity, yummy and weak, but yesterday I got the Long Island Ice Tea which was sooooo NASTY. I drank it anyway because I knew the drink was expensive and man it really messed me up. I kept laughing when nothing was funny, I felt like I was in three places at once and I couldn’t even enjoy my food. I don’t even remember how my food tasted. So that sucks. I will never drink again…NEVER. For New Years I will enjoy a glass of sparkling grape juice when we toast the New year in.

….You know what, I’d rather pray the New Year in.

Last night I had two dreams. The first one was stupid so I’d rather not even share that dumb dream which only made me angry with my sister because what she did. The second dream I had I was at the zoo and Elijah was playing on the playground. I had Destin with me, but he was a bit younger than he is now. He was probably 5 or 6 months old in the dream. For some reason the lions were free to roam and one chased me and I ran on the playground to the top of it. I knew that the lion wanted to eat Destin. I started calling for Elijah and after constantly calling for him he came to me. I looked down and noticed the lion had picked up Destins scent and was pacing at the bottom of the playground for him. Then a female lion showed up and was starring at me. I looked over and saw a lady that worked at the Zoo at the playground and I asked her to help me. I told her about the lions trying to eat Destin and she refused to help me saying “I’m sorry there is nothing I can do”. I pleaded for her help screaming at the top of my lungs and she still refused to help. Then I discovered I wasn’t holding Destin so I started panicing because instead of Destin I was holding a stuffed animal! I was so scard that I had dropped him, when Elijah told me he had him. I took Destin from Elijah and held him in my arms. Suddenly some how the male lion had climbed up on the playground and was on the opposite side of the playground at the top. We was seperated from the lion by a tunnel. I held Destin close to me starring at the lion in terror. The lion jumped toward us trying to reach the side we were on, but it missed and fell to the ground. When it fell to the ground it turned into a big pile of a clear jelly-type substance. Then the female lion did the same thing and when she hit the ground she also turned into the substance. For some reason I knew it was God who saved me and I started giving God glory. Then I woke up.

I wonder what that dream meant? I really want to find out what that meant. I’m going to find out what it meant before the end of the week. I know that dream was important.

Today is a better day. I’m not angry anymore about the workers compensation problem, or others dumb opinion of my website and it’s content. Who cares what anyone thinks anymore. I know that everything in my website is original and I know that I will get my money so who cares…so what!

Today I got those end tables to go with my lamps. I’m glad I did. The apartment looks really nice now. I even got my own computer desk that took forever to assemble. So now I have more room and I don’t have to share the desk with Jeremy’s laptop. I can put my printer up now, but I still need to buy a scanner from Micro Center. I’ll get that later when I buy a mouse pen.

When I finally do get that mouse pen I can really work on Sam’s Manga and draw the pictures so they won’t look crappy. It’s really hard drawing with a mouse.

Well gotta go…an argument is brewing…

I had a dream last night that I was talking to someone, but I can’t remember if they were a man or woman. I’m leaning towards the person being male though. Anyways I remember them saying something like God gives everyone different gifts or God gives everyone a certain role to play…something like that. Like healing, spiritual warfare, etc. I said to him I believe my role is spiritual warfare. Then eithier I or they said that my Mom had the gift of healing. Pretty weird huh?

Well I gotta go wash my hair and take a shower. Jeremy and I may be going out and I want to be pretty…I’ll finish writing later.