I’m testing a new theme for the spring today so if you come to my site and it looks odd don’t despair…it’s only temporary. Anyways. I gotta go. My friend Kim and I are going to the mall to hang out since it’s actually nice out.

Added at 1:48am…

Well…we never went to the mall because Kim said her Mom wouldn’t let her go. I didn’t get myself and Destin dressed for nothing so Destin and I went to the mall and bought Elijah a new outfit to wear on his Birthday.

Tommorow I have a doctor appointment so I have to drop Destin off at my Mom’s until I get back. I hope Elijah is feeling better because I want to bring him home. I just didn’t want him to give Destin influenza and with me being pregnant I’m the last person that needs to get sick.

Like the new theme?

I like it, but I still like my pink one better. I guess I gotta get used to this one and maybe my opinion of it will change. I made a summer theme, but I hate it with a passion because I made it mimic the original pink one. Maybe I’ll find some ideas on the net to get an idea of how to set the layout up differently. Until then the purple spring layout will be up. One thing for sure…this layout is easier on my eyes since I got so tired of viewing the pink layout…it started giving me a headache. It took me forever to finish this theme. I started earlier today and I just finished making the final touches…hopefully.

I hope I didn’t forget anything, but if I did I’ll find out sooner or later and I’ll be able to fix it.

I’m creating some new themes for my blog. I created a new banner for this theme with some photoshop brushes I found on the net. I also grabbed a new font to go with the elegance of the banner. I’m going to create two more themes. One for Florida with shells, flowers and ferns and another one that’s a bit of an ocrean theme with fish scales and coral. I think I may use the water theme one for the summer and in October I’ll switch it to the Florida theme when I move. It’s be about time for sweetvanillasugar to get a new color scheme. I’ve been pink all year. Although pink is my favorite color, I’m starting to get tired of looking at it.

This week I’m going to be testing out my theme’s. If your lucky you might catch a glimpse of my theme’s loaded up on the blog.

Well…it’s late and I still need to take my nightly shower.

Later.

Man…I cannot wait till I move! I hate living up here! It stays too damn cold and it is only nice for maybe 3-4 months. I mean it starts getting cold towards the end of September and then it continues to get cold and stay cold from October-March. It doesn’t start to warm up a bit until the end of April, but May is the month when the nice weather actually begins. Then June, July, August and the first weeks of September are nice.

The air is too filthy and polluted up here and everyone who lives up here in this state have the worst attitudes on the face of the planet! Everyone is so cold hearted and harsh. I hate it. The only way to survive living up north is to be just as mean because when I used to friendly, people would walk all over me, pick fights with me and be mean because they took my niceness for a weakness. I can’t wait to get away from these people and move down south where the weather is actually as nice as the attitudes of the people.

I’m also tired of getting sick because of dirty dry air. I’m sick of having sore throats, colds, and the flu. I’m tired of paying high ass heating bills because it’s so cold. It shouldn’t hurt to go outside. I want to enjoy nature. I actually love being outside, but because of the weather I have to spend half the year indoors. I mean it’s nice to wear cute sweaters and eskimo boots sometimes, but I prefer the shorts, tanks and open toed high heels.

I prefer a bathing suit over a big bulky winter coat any day…

I’m going to start counting down the days until I move. Maybe I should add a countdown to my sidebar to anticipate the 1st of October, which I gotta say…will be the happiest day of my life!

I had a dream last night…

I had a baby before Destin and Jeremy and I couldn’t afford to take care of the baby. We couldn’t get health insurance or afford baby formula and no one would help us. I didn’t even have breast milk to breastfeed the baby. I took the baby to the hospital for help because I didn’t want the baby to starve. They took the baby from me to care for it until I was able to take care of the baby and get her back.

The next scene the baby was at least 6 or 7 months old and I was financially stable and I visited the baby. She was so fat and healthy with light skin, but she looked so much like me. I wanted my baby back so I told Jeremy about the baby and for some reason it was like he didn’t know about the baby until I told him. I also said these exact words to my Mom “Instead of three grand children you have four.” Refering to my kids only.

I was looking through the yellow pages for Hillcrest Hospital to get the number to call to see how to get my baby back and my Dad asked me what I was doing. I was a little irritated by him so I gave him a brief answer and said “I’m looking for the number to Hillcrest Hospital.”

My Dad got mad because I didn’t tell him everything and started yelling at me. I got so frustrated with my Dad and not being able to find the number so I threw the phone book on the floor and started tussling with him and I had him in a head lock. I remember he flipped me off and wasn’t himself. I let him go and yelled at my Dad addressing him as Satan and calling him the antichrist in anger. I noticed that my Dad’s skin was suddenly covered in opened sores.

I went into the kitchen and my Dad fell to his knees and I was about to leave out the back door because I was just tired of the whole situation, but something said my Dad needed to be delivered so I turned around and told my Dad that a demon like you can’t look a man or woman of God in the face. I said some other things to glorify the annointing and highness of God and then I started praying in a form of a melody. I then asked Jeremy for some oil because I forgot my annointing oil and he gave me some oil in a green bottle to annoint my Dad. I started praying for the Holy Spirit to cosume us and enter the room. I asked the chains of bondage to be broken from my Dad and I asked the Holy Spirit to guide me in what to say and do so I could deliver my dad.

As I look at this dream over and over and meditate on it…I started meditating on it at 10am in the morning and then I feel asleep and had a dream I was singing “Yes Jesus Loves Me” pretty weird. I’ve been having several dreams where I am in constant prayer and sometimes I’m delivering individuals. Some of my dreams have even revealed curses that were placed on me, like one when my Dad allowed me to be bitten by a green snake and I started crying because I was very upset, but he thought it was funny. My Dad was satan, the snake was a curse and the color green means life, carnal etc.

God speaks to us in our dreams like he did in bibical times, but we must be able to discern what dreams are from God and what’s not. I read in a book called: “Understanding the Dreams you Dream” by Ira Milligan, which is a bibical based dream interpetation book. This book says God will visit you in the morning (Job 33:29)…and this dream took place in the early hours of the day because I woke up a bit after 9am from the dream. It also says the dream will usually line up with the word of God and that’s how you will know who it is from.

So let’s take a look at the dream symbols that I have highlighted and there meanings:

baby-New: Beginning;

hospital-Care: Church;

Mom-Source: Church;

three-Conform: obey; copy;

four-Reign: Rule; creation;

grand children (children)-Oneself or themselves: inherited blessing or inquity;

Dad-Authority: satan;

kitchen-Heart: ambition; intent

back door-Past: past sins or sins of my forefathers;

oil-Anointing: Holy Spirit anointing; healing;

green-Life: renewal;

Now the first scene of the dream I believe is that the baby is my annointing, but I cannot nuture my annointing myself and no one can help me, but a church. So I take the baby(my annointing/new beginning) to a hospital (church) and they nuture and nourish my baby (annointing/new beginning) until I am able to care for it myself. My annointing/new beginning is always there for me to touch and see, but I can’t fully obtain it because of a hinderance…

The next part is my Dad who represents Satan because of how I feel towards him. I have a geniune dislike for him and he attacks me verbally because he doesn’t want me to get or use/have the baby (annointing/new beginning). This is probably why I cannot find the number to the hospital because of his distraction so in frustration I fight him, but in the wrong manner (carnally). I get so angry and I decide to leave out the back door (my past). I guess I keep running back to my past instead of facing the problem. Or the problem could be a result of my past. Instead of running out the back door (my past) God tells me to handle the problem so I turn around and annoint my Dad whom is on his knees (now he represents repentance and submission because he is on his knees listening to me). I pray over him to break the chains of bondage from that sin and/or curse. This happened in the kitchen which represents my heart. The ambitions of my heart could also be deliverance from the curse.

The weridest thing is the comment to my Mom “Instead of three grand children you have four” Why would I or God say to the church “Instead of following tradition of oneself you need to reign”…?

After pondering this I looked up the words conform (to comply, conform to rules, or follow tradition) and reign (royal rule or authority; sovereignty.) which to me describes God. I believe God wants me to say these words to the church I attend or find a church that doesn’t follow the traditions of the world and/or church, but the exact instruction of the Lord. So the actual phrase is “Instead of following traditions of oneself you need to follow the exact instruction of the Heavenly Father.”

So now I know what God has said to me…now what?

I know what curse he speaks of because it’s a curse from my past and I know what ne means when he says I am handling the curse “carnally”. Writing my life story reveals the curse, but doesn’t break it. Only prayer, submission and deliverance can.

To me the dream also says I won’t ever have that “new beginning” if I don’t rid myself of the curse.

I know the title is not christ-like and is quit a bit extreme…

But…

I just found out that Anthony or Tiffany is still accessing my site using another computer and that is just so darn irritating. Stuff like that just makes me speak in the flesh.

Why are you so desperate to read about my life???

Fuck OFF!

Leave me alone!!

Your email “calledministries@aol.com” has been blocked, but I dare you to email me from that computer using another email address because when you do that computer will be blocked also!!

So keep coming to my site…be my guest and email me so I can have the luxury to block you.

I’m pretty sure you’ll try because you’re so arrogant, stupid and hate rejection.

Again…

get the Fuck OFF!