I went into labor around 1am on August 27th, 2007, but I didn’t know if I was actually in labor or if it was false labor again so I ignored it.

That day I had just finished painting the front room with no help might I add…

I took a long shower and went to bed just to be troubled by no sleep from constant pain. I tossed and turned all night because I was having irregular contractions that were 10-20 minutes apart or more. I thought if I changed position it would stop hurting and I really didn’t want to wake anyone up for nothing.

Around 4 or 5am I couldn’t take it anymore. It seemed like it was hurting more than before so I called my sister and woke Jeremy up too. I then called my Midwife and as soon as I got off the phone with her the contractions were even more intense and were 5 minutes apart.

When Jeremy got me to the hospital I was in tears. I was breathing okay through the pain, but it just got so overwhelming and I didn’t think I could cope. My mom was waiting at the hospital for us and she told me to just breath because crying could interfere with labor.

I was admitted which seemed like forever after my mom cursed out the valet for refusing to park her car and was told that I was already 8cm! I was like “Oh Lord, please give me my epidural!”

Of course the epidural didn’t work because the attendee allowed a resident whom had no idea what the hell he was doing give me one. All that shit did was numb my legs. I still felt every contraction no matter how much medicine they gave me…now I know what natural birth feels like with the added paralysis…

Also after specifically saying “No Medical Students” in my birth plan a medical student still was there observing my birth. She did not ask me if it was okay because I would have said no, instead she introduced herself to me like that made it okay. I was extremely angry about that and told my Midwife and the nurse about how that made me feel when I said no. That really ruined my birthing experience big time.

After maybe 10 minutes of pushing I gave birth to my new son Jeremiah Samu`r (pronounced Sa Mar) at 10:01 am. He was 6 lbs 14oz and 18 3/4 in. long. He looks just like me when I was a baby, but he has Jeremy’s eyebrows and ears. He’s so adorable.

I couldn’t wait to come home after the birth. I was tired of constantly being woke up for vital signs and tests and people coming in to talk to me and poke at me and Jeremiah. I was so happy when I finally walked into my apartment even though I hate it here.

Well I’m about to go get some rest and hold Jeremiah.

Last night I slept a lot better. It wasn’t as hot and humid as the night before and my allergies let up so I was able to sleep more comfortably without the aggravation of the itchy throat and eyes and sneezing.

Today I’m painting the front room finally. I can finally have that out the way so when it’s time to move all I will have to do is load my things into the Uhaul, pack whatever isn’t packed up already, clean up whatever is left, and of course…take pictures of the apartment.

I’m not going to let these assholes say that there is anything wrong with this apartment because I will have proof and I won’t hesitate to drag their sorry asses into court for my security deposit if they try to keep it.

I already started painting, but right now I’m taking a little break. Christine and her guy are suppose to be over at 1pm to help me out and so will Jeremy with the second bucket of paint when he gets back from Walmart.

We only have 4 walls to paint so as soon as that’s done I will be so happy. I’ll be even happier when this baby finally comes and when I move. I hate this place…

I wonder when Housing Authority is coming to do an inspection? So they (Hilltop Estates) can see what it feels like. They did that to me and lied about the condition of my apartment (but I have proof that they are lying so it’s no big deal) so now some one bigger is going to do that to them. The only difference is the Housing Authority won’t have to lie about anything. They will see the violations because they actually exist…

1. The duck tape in my window which still isn’t holding the screen in place properly.
2. The memo they have posted by the mailboxes and laundry room saying they will tow your car if it’s leaking fluids because they just paved which I believe is illegal and hard to prove.
3. The parking blocks they have nailed to the pavement using them for speed bumps.
4. My gas leaking stove with bad pilot lights. No telling who else has this same problem.
5. How they failed to compensate me for my loss of groceries when their refrigerator went bad.
6. Etc.

Next week is my last week at Townsend and I am so glad because I’m tired of that place and driving there over all they raggedy streets and terrible traffic. I wish I could go into labor next week so I won’t have to go.

Well I’m about to make something cold to drink and start painting again.

Oh man…

I feel terrible today. My allergies have flared up and my eyes are itchy and watery. My throat itches and I can’t stop sneezing. I didn’t get any sleep last night because of my allergies and the humidity. I was tossing and turning all night.

I slept most of the early afternoon and then went to the mall with Jeremy to walk hoping it will make me go into labor. I came back and started cleaning, putting clothes up, and then I tried to take a nap, but I just couldn’t settle down so I started cleaning again.

I then went outside and cleaned out my trunk throwing a whole lot of junk away.

Hopefully tonight will be a better night for sleep.

Another day pregnant….

Another week…

And then probably another…

Hopefully it doesn’t last this long. I know it will come to an end soon, but I am so ready for it to be over.

I went to the hospital and it turns out that it was false labor. I’ll just wait until I’m having unbearable pain before going to the hospital again. It’s so embarrassing to go and be sent home. That can really make a girl feel dumb…hopeless almost (“Will it ever end?).

I’ve continued to have irregular contractions that come and go as they please. I even had a few at work and then when I got home today along with all the other so-called “prelabor” symptoms.

I’m just weary of this pregnancy. I don’t want to succumb to saying I’m miserable because if I acknowledge that then I will be.

I just want my body back. I want my normal breast size and look back, I want to be able to fit my clothes again, and I’m tired of being uncomfortably hot because of the 10 degree high body temperature. I’m tired of carting this belly around and looking at myself in the mirror with it. I’ll be so happy when my wardrobe is no longer limited.

Right now since I’m normally a size 8/9, I can only fit 3 (babydoll) shirts, 1 pair of shorts, one sun dress and one skirt. That really sucks and I refuse to spend any more money on clothes that fit just to wear for 1-2 weeks or so.

Ever since yesterday night I’ve been in moderate pain even having a few contractions and then this morning the same thing, but more contractions among other things. I don’t even know if I should go to work or not because the contractions are so irregular being 5-8 minutes apart, but it is so uncomfortable to walk, get up and sit. It’s like painful and as if my insides are going to fall out! I don’t know what’s going on and I wish I did so I can know if this is just false labor that will stop or if I am finally in labor.

I called my Mom and she advised me to stay at home I then called my Midwife so I can see what she says. I just don’t want to get in the car to go to work, just to be embarrassed by actually going into active labor at work.

I’m 4 centimeters dilated so far, but the baby’s face is facing my tummy instead of my back. Come on now little boy stop being so difficult! If he was facing my back I’d go right into full labor and this pregnancy can be over. With him in that position it will not only prolong the pregnancy, but the labor as well.

My midwife gave me some techniques to get him to turn. Hopefully he won’t be so darn stubborn and turn soon like tonight so I can get this over with.

My car is finally finished! I got it back today and man there was a lot of stuff wrong with the car. T.K.P. really gave me a piece of junk for as much as they charged for it. Word of advice…”Don’t buy “Buy Here Pay Here” cars EVER!!” Even the mechanic that worked on it agreed. Here’s a list of all the shit that was wrong with that car:

• Tune up
• Spark plugs
• Brakes
• Rear hub bearings
• lug nuts
• struts
• tires
• brake hose
• Electrical system
• Passenger door (wires, leaking water)

And that’s just a general list of things because I don’t know the details of each part. I’ve only had that car for almost 2 years. There is no way all this stuff can be wrong with it because of me. It was a piece of junk when I bought it.

Earlier today I got into with maintenance because Destin almost fell out the window last week. He was looking out the window and then the screen, for the 4th time came dislodged from the frame again! The screen went tumbling to the ground and stayed there for 2 days. No one even attempted to fix it. They just let it sit there until Jea’neene said something to them about it because I’m tired of complaining about the same shit to them just to get stupid, defensive letters in return. (more…)

I feel really sick today…

I almost puked in my Mom’s car on the way to work.

I was so nauseous I had to leave work early and I’ve been in bed all day.

Hopefully tomorrow is a better day…stomach wise.

I just have to say despite how exhausted I felt this morning when I woke up my skin was beautiful! I was expecting this stuff to take at least 2-4 weeks to see some real results. I usually have dark under-eye circles all the time (especially when I’m tired), but not this morning. My skin was actually glowing.

I wanted to try Rare Minerals to help reduce my pores in my T-zone since that’s where I usually break out and to get rid of the dark under-eye circles. I guess it’s working. My skin also seems a lot smoother than before.

I remember reading reviews about this treatment last month and people had mixed opinions. The majority said they loved it while some women complained of it breaking them out or not seeing any changes. When I read the ingredients I saw that it is completely natural containing no chemicals of any sort. The only thing I can think of is the “French Green Clay” which is an antibacterial. It was probably that ingredient their skin was reacting to because this ingredient kills germs.

Anyways…my skin hasn’t reacted like that to it. Maybe if I didn’t wash my face and just applied it to dirty skin then yeah it probably would, but I wash my face once a day at night with glycolic acid based facial cleanser since salicylic acid doesn’t clear or keep acne at bay for me.

I also read an article in the Cosmopolitan magazine about not washing twice a day which is something I did. It said to rinse with clear water in the morning and only wash at night. Doing this keeps you from drying your skin out which can actually lead to more breakouts. (more…)

The other day Jeremy bought me that BE Rare minerals night treatment that I’ve been longing to have for months, but since I’ve been saving every penny I have for Florida I haven’t been able to go buy the stuff because it’s $60 for one bottle.

I tried it the other night, but I don’t know if I works yet. I’ll have to use it for 2-4 weeks to see any real results. That reminds me… I need to add another Trilastin SR belly photo which will be the last photo of my belly while pregnant.

I am so tired. I stayed up really late last night because I was working on a layout for my portfolio site that will soon replace Vanilla Sugar Templates for good. I am only putting my best work on this site and I want to have at least 4-6 free layouts to give out on the site along with the layout examples to show my capabilities.

I have not been feeling well at all…

Thursday I had all this pelvic pressure and it was very uncomfortable to walk. If I had to go pee real bad it just increased the pressure and made it almost painful! I couldn’t even leave work because my car is in the shop and who knows when all the work is going to be completed on that car. Hopefully I can get my car back before this month is over.

I wanted to leave so bad because I was very uncomfortable so today I didn’t even go in. I just couldn’t bear to be there and have to suffer like that again.

Sometimes it’s even hard for me to get up because of all the pressure.

I’ll be so glad when this pregnancy has finally come to an end…