I’ve set a goal of 30 days to move out. I’ve had enough!

If I can get 2 more days at the bar or make at least $200 in tips on the 2 nights I do work I will be okay to move out because that will be $400 a week and $1600 a month. I can’t take anymore of the nonsense here!

I’m tired of feeling like the “outcast” and being picked on. I do not like living in a situation where I feel like everyone is against me and has formed their own cliche. Sometimes they even act like I don’t even exist. Or I receive comments from my Mom with negative energy input into them like she’s trying to draw me into and argument with her and when I refuse to respond then here she goes. It’s like a no win situation. I haven’t done anything to anyone and no matter how much I try I’m still the one that get’s picked on about every little thing. These people act so nasty towards me without any given reason. I come to the library to get peace even if it’s for a few hours because I’m tired of the hostile enviroment.

Home is supposed to be a place to retire from all the chaos that you run into while your out. Your suppose to find peace at home. Home is supposed to be the place that you can relax, wind down, and be at peace. It’s not suppose to be like this. Anytime I lived on my own [without Jeremy], I had peace at home. My son’s can be a handful, but they don’t ever cause me to feel uneasy.

I’m making it my business to be out of this hell hole by December!