I know I haven’t updated in a while because I’ve been so busy. It seems like all I do is work and that’s going to have to come to a stop. I work 5 or 6 days a week, but I only get up to 28 hours per week. Now does that make any sense to you?! I also had an interview and I’ve already taken the drug tests and background tests for the position. I will be only working 3 days a week and I will get 36 hours per week qualifying me as full-time. The shifts are 12 hour shifts, but 6 of those hours are paid sleep time. As soon as I am told when orientation starts I will be notifying my current job that I may need to resign. I wanted to keep this job, but it really doesn’t make any sense to do so. It takes up all my time during the week and I have hardly anytime to be with my boys let alone complete any of my school assignments which will begin May 15th. My education comes first and I know this job isn’t going to take me anywhere. All it does is pay my phone bill, and give me money to get around and have a little fun. I can’t do anything big like move into an apartment, or get a car. I gave this a great deal of thought and I’ve decided that my current job is really too much of a strain for me.

The newest thing in my life is Brian and I finally got our own little spot. It’s not much, but it’s a temporary start. We are currently renting a room in a shared house until we both have the finacial assets to move into an actual apartment although we’ve been also talking about getting a house and maybe renting out half of it. With the Down Payment Assistance program and his military benefits we can have the boys and ourselves in a house. I can’t wait until something moves in our favor so we can start making some steps forward, but this is a start. We can both sleep peacefully, and I can use my computer without people trying to control what I do with it. I don’t have to listen to anyone bitching and complaining and neither does Brian. We finally have a little peace in our lives.

I am really nervous, but I have faith in Brian. I love him so dearly and I believe we can make this work as long as we work together. Brian is so different from what I’m used to. He’s so loving and caring and helpful. He doesn’t disrespect me he is completely perfect in my eyes. I can’t see anything wrong with him. He is completely perfect from every angle in my eyes and I thank God for giving me another chance with him.