I wanted to write in my blog earlier today, but now I really don’t feel like it. I was going to talk about how Jeremy put together this awkward surprise party for me. I was beginning to think no one cared and the fact that the person whom threw the party only stayed for about 10 or 15 minutes and then left really sucked.

Well today I was really tired because I’m not too much of a morning person. I used to be, but now I have to get back in the groove for getting up early. I’ve been sleeping in lately, especially since it’s allergy season and my allergies are the worst in the morning (I’m glad I took that Zyrtec this afternoon). I had to get up at 7am to do my friend a favor and take her baby to daycare so she could go to school. I have been sleepy all day! When I went home I got settled and put Destin to sleep with a warm bottle of milk. He fell asleep and every time I tried to doze off my cell phone rung (it’s ringing right now as I type). First it was Anthony, then Jea’neene sending me a text message, then Jeremy who kept sending text messages and calling. At least Jea’neene and Anthony only called once. He kept calling and sending text messages, then he’d call the house phone multiple times. I talked to him earlier and told him I was lying down. How hard is that to understand?

I was so mad I sent everyone a text message that disturbed my sleep saying “I can’t even take a damn nap!”. I just gave up on trying to nap and ate myself a piece of cake and drunk a cup of grape soda to get a temporary high.

Later around 5pm Jea’neene came home and took Destin with her to walk her friends to the bus stop. Elijah was with my Mom at the Zoo so I of course decided to take a nap (By then the cake and pop wore off). As soon as I lay on the couch and started dozing off Jeremy once again began ringing my cell and calling the house phone because I didn’t get up to answer it. When Malcolm came home he answered the house phone and told him I was asleep….Do you know he had the nerve to ask Malcolm to wake me up?

When I did get up (after 15 minutes of sleep – - If you want to call that sleep) I talked to him and all he could talk about was Anthony, Anthony, Anthony. I didn’t want to hear about that. I really don’t care. That’s all he complains about or he keeps trying to tell me what I need to do to make him happy. Then he said I asked Anthony: “How was his bad day?” When I never did because apparently the both of them were having a bad day and Jeremy blindly assumed I was choosing Anthony over him. I really don’t give a damn about no ones day because when I had a bad day the first question that came from Jeremy’s lips was “What did you do?” Like everything is always my fault!

So we ended up having this big argument. He started leaving me all theses long drawn out voicemails that I had to torcher myself listening to so I can delete them because I wouldn’t answer my phone. I was so angry I changed my voicemail greeting saying: “If this is Jeremy don’t leave me no got damn voicemails. Everyone else leave a message after the beep.” I think I’m going to change it back tomorrow. It didn’t matter anyway I still received like 10 voicemails from him.

I hope tomorrow is a better day. I’ve been so happy because my friend Kim finally got her own place. That gave me this feeling of great joy like I was high on happiness because everything turned around for her. I know she’s happy she doesn’t have to deal with her Mother’s selfishness anymore. Well at least not have to live among it.

I guess I did feel like writing… I gotta go catch some Z’s now – - hopefully…

Goodnight.