Today was not a very good day at all. It was more of a highly irritating day for me. I really thought this day was going to go well, but it didn’t go as I expected at all. I took a day off of school to spend some time with Brian because I really wanted to have some alone time with him since the last time I tried to spend time with him I couldn’t due to the same circumstances that happened today. I really wish I would’ve known that it was going to be the same shit today so I would’ve not wasted my time just to be annoyed. I missed a whole day of school for nothing. Since I couldn’t spend time with him at his home I invited him downtown. I wanted to at least try to make this day work because I went all the way over there  to spend time with him and I was disappointed at the fact that I couldn’t and he didn’t even take into consideration to warn me before I came by. I feel that, that was very unfair and I was so angry and irritated with the entire situation that I didn’t have anything to say because I didn’t want to snap on anyone. I am so patient and understanding, but that can only go so far before I crack which is something I will like to avoid if at all possible. He didn’t even go downtown with me so I ended up going alone just to be further irritated by the St. Patrick’s Day crowd.

Today was a beautiful day and it was ruined for me. I just walked around the mall watching all the St. Patrick’s Day celebrators walk around intoxicated and acting like complete and utter idiots. After the entertainment of that began to bore me, I went to the rapid station and waited for the train to arrive. It seemed like everyone from Parma and Brookpark (the St. Patrick’s Day crowd) didn’t have to wait long for the rapid to come. A train came for them back to back, but for us, we were left waiting for over an hour because the RTA was catering to them. We spend money on your the RTA bus and rapid everyday faithfully and you they cater to these people on St. Patrick’s Day whom will probably won’t be catching your the rapid anytime soon. What a fucking shame!! We’re loyal customers and we should be treated better than that!

While I was downtown and on the busI talked to Tenisha for a little while until I got home to keep myself from actually snapping on anyone that annoyed me. I didn’t want to take my frustrations out on anyone non-deserving of such. I’m now at home and suprisingly this is the most peace I’ve had all day. I’m really worn out from all the displeasures of today so I’m just going to call it a day and take a nap. I am really exhausted now and would just rather not think about today. I hope Thursday turns out the way I expect at least. I’m tired of this old track record of disappointments and it’s time for a change in pace.

Today I went to take my civil service exam. I’ve been praying that I get one of the highest scores on the exam and I was so nervous when I went because I had no idea what was going to be on the test. It’s really weird to take a test that you don’t prepare for. As I waited in the room filled with tables with people sitting at almost every table. I estimated that it was about 20 people there taking the same exam I started to wonder if there was a position for all of us. I thought to myself that these were people I had to compete with for this job and I knew I needed to get a really high score to be one of the lucky people picked for the job.

The supervisor over the man that gave the test came in to answer questions and it was to my understanding that taking the exam and getting a high score didn’t guarantee employment. The civil service exam announcement didn’t really mean that the positions were actually available so it really isn’t a guarantee that I will even get a job. Even after all I’ve gone through just to take the test! That broke my spirits because I felt like I was probably wasting my time, but it’s still a chance so I decided to do the best I could possibly do on the test.

As we began to take the test I found that the test was one of the easiest tests I’ve ever taken. The first 30 questions or so were basically reading comprehension. There were a few questions about proper use of vocabulary and on driving. I’m pretty sure I got almost all the questions right. I’m confident that my score will be in the 90′s if not 100%.

After the test I was in a pretty good mood so I went to Tower city and did some very light shopping because I don’t have a lot of clothes right now. I purchased a pink hoodie, 2 bra tanks, and a black knit shirt off the clearance rack at the Rave. I then went into Rainbows and purchased 2 green tops and a beautiful green scarf. I decided that was enough so on my way to the rapid I grabbed a Cinnabon to eat and go on the train.

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I really hope that the city is hiring and this wasn’t all for nothing. I tired of living like this. The money that I have now isn’t going to last forever.