For starters to go back to around the time Israel was born, I discovered that African Americans are actually descendants of the children of Israel. The chapter of Deuteronomy 28 explains all the curses as well as the North Atlantic slave trade. I really don’t want to go into the details of this today (I will save that for a later date), but if you are interested you can open up your own Bible and read it for yourself. There’s more scripture proving this in the Bible, but that’s were to start. Anyways, the reason I brought this up is because a former classmate from elementary school hipped me to this truth. After that he and I and his wife became very close. I was even intending on moving to Georgia to be closer to him and her, but then some things happened that have caused me to reconsider my decision.

To start off, back in biblical times, the women always had their fathers cover them and choose their husbands. As you may know I have been single. I’ve dated and been in 1 actual relationship since my divorce that lasted about 5 months. The man turned out to be a complete and total leech, and was never with me for me because after he got what he wanted he used my beliefs as a reason to break it off. After that I dated a few different men, but those dates never resulted in anything. None of them were suitable and I even went before the Most High and asked him to remove any man that isn’t meant for me out of my life so that I would no longer waste my time. It seems he answered my prayers every time. So back to the covering, my former classmate/brother (not blood brother) suggested that he’d cover me and my children. I really didn’t want him to because of some things that happened in the past with him and I didn’t feel it was right for him to do so, but I allowed him. When men were interested he would be so strict and it seemed as if he would look for any reason to say no. Now in this day and age, no one, not even a man that knows he is a Hebrew Israelite descendant is going to be perfect. I didn’t like how my brother was going about it. He was being very judgmental and to be honest he is not no where close to perfection. He can’t even put away his foul language as I have, and he is too proud and arrogant.

Well, about a month or so ago I began talking to a man I used to work with. This man was interested back then, but I was involved with someone so we remained friends. I decided to not tell my brother or his wife about him because this man has no knowledge of his Hebraic heritage and I knew my brother would use that as ammo to destroy any chances of me talking to him. I first began talking to him on the phone, and then we met at a coffee shop and talked, played “Hanging with Friends“, and just chilled. We went to the mall and walked around and just talked and talked. He even came over on the sabbath and listened to the lesson and had dinner with me and the boys. It was really nice that he was willing to be apart of my world. I haven’t met too many men that would even take the time to listen to a lesson. I just knew this was the beginning of something beautiful. I liked him so much I even went before the Most High and told Him how I felt. The first sabbath he spent with me I was about to tell my brother, but they were so busy that I decided to wait. A few days later I was on the phone with his wife, while he was over my house and told her about him. As soon as I mentioned he had children I got a big “oh hell nawl”, SMH. Now if you are a reader of my blog, you know I have 4 children so what do I look like judging someone for how many kids they have???

Anyways, my brother wouldn’t even come to the phone he got a straight attitude so I ended my conversation with his wife and went to spend time with my man. A few days later now my brother is chatting with me on facebook asking me “whats up with some dude name Jeff coming over and spending shabbats (sabbaths) with you?” I told him about him and he immediately got an attitude and started going off on me like I did something wrong. Saying that I betrayed him because I didn’t tell him about him before I let him in my life. His anger was just inconceivable to me. He acted as if I cheated on him! I can understand being upset that I didn’t say anything in the beginning, but to be angry to that point just didn’t make any sense to me at all.

A few days later his wife asked me about my day. I was planning on going wine tasting with Jeff before the sabbath started. I told her about it and said I wished her and her husband could come and how I wished he wasn’t so angry with me about the situation. She then told me how the situation was crazy, called me foolish, and a liar. She told me I belonged to Jeff now and just went on and on making me feel very low. I felt like I was a child or something the way they talked to me instead of a grown woman. When I told her that “the last time I check I was a grown woman and I didn’t know I had to ask permission to spend time with anyone.” She just went off on me, SMH. Her and my brother were joined together prior to either of them knowing their heritage and they expect me to shun every man away that doesn’t know who they are. If I did that I would probably never end up with anyone. Most Hebrew men are married and the ones that aren’t my brother will just try to find something to say to destroy that chance. That was why I got to know this man before telling them. It really seemed like my brother was using his covering as a power tool. This is why I didn’t want him to cover me, I’d rather have my Father in heaven choose my husband for me. At least He will choose out of pure love, not paying respect to them rather they are in truth or not, but by their heart.

During shabbat service my brother used whatever he could use from the lesson to post comments that we could see(shabbat service is online in a chatroom) towards me. The comments were worded in a way that no one, but me would know what he was talking about. He would post things like “BETRAYAL” in the chatroom. He then started using the scriptures to his advantage by posting scriptures about judging on Facebook so I would see it to make it seem as if he was right to judge someone he didn’t even know or didn’t even try to get to know.

I could have sworn the Messiah himself said this:

“Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.” – Matthew 7:1-5

I was so tempted to post this as my status on Facebook, but my boyfriend urged me not to. He is right though, I shouldn’t feed into my brothers ignorance. It would make me just as unrighteous as he if I did, so I didn’t.

The way in which they have reacted has caused me to change my way of thinking with them. I don’t want to move to Georgia where they are anymore. My brother’s arrogance was causing me to reconsider my move before, but this situation sealed the deal with me on that note. My boyfriend doesn’t even want to talk to him anymore because he prejudged him without getting to know him first. I just don’t want him to think all Hebrew men are like my brother because they are not. I ended up talking to another Hebrew man about this situation and he said he was willing to teach my boyfriend about our culture and beliefs so that he’d understand them better. I’m grateful that I was able to meet him prior to this happening. Funny thing is my brother didn’t even want me to associate myself with this man and his teachings either because he didn’t agree with something they taught.

Well I know this entry was long-winded, but it was about time I got this off my chest and to let you all know whats been going on with me. I keep saying I will start writing in here at least once a week. Hopefully this time I can keep my word.

Do you know the women from the boards took my video and posted it on the forum adding more fuel to the fire?! They said I was unprofessional for posting the video. Maybe I was, idk, but I never posted that video for them. It was a personal vblog just to relieve some of the stress I was under. Maybe I should not have taken any of it personal. Maybe I should’ve just made my vblog on Viddler and posted it here instead. With that said I feel like a lot of this has caused me to lose business, but not to fret. This will pass and I believe my business will recover from this.

The only thing I can do is continue to make good products. Promote them as much as I can and provide excellent customer service to my customers. I will also learn to handle my stress a lot better, by only venting offline where it can’t be seen nor heard by the online community since I know now how much people are watching me. I can honestly say that this has been a learning experience.

Things I intend on improving business wise:

My hair creme: I will make sure that everything is emulsified properly before adding the preservative to prevent any oil separation

New labels: Right now the labels aren’t water proof so I intend on replacing them with waterproof ones by next month.

Organization: I am usual organized, but I can honestly say that I need to improve on this business wise by making sure I have everything in stock needed

Credit Card Processor: Currently the processor I am with actually holds a large amount of each sale I make for 3 months at a time. They are now holding over $500 of my earnings. I can’t improve my business with large holds like that. With that said I am currently in the process of changing my processor to one that doesn’t do this.

Well that’s it. Even though my business has been hurt by this it can and will recover from it. I have a few things up my sleeve to get my name out there with positivity attached to it, including offering free samples to popular natural haircare sites and channels on Youtube. I also plan on holding a few natural haircare conferences this summer to get my line out locally.

“This month shall be unto you the beginning of months: it shall be the first month of the year to you.” Exodus 12:2

So with that said, if you read the entire passage you will discover that the new year does not begin in the middle of Winter, but at the beginning of Spring. Honestly it makes more sense being that Spring is the beginning of new life so what better time to start the new year. I really believe the Most High Elohim knew what he was doing when he choose this time to begin the new year. The middle of the winter just doesn’t make much sense and if you do your own research you’ll find that the new year celebration in January is all pagan man made tradition.

So how did we bring the new year in? The same way our Hebrew ancestors did. We baked unleavened bread, roasted meat with bitter herbs(horseradish) and drank wine(kosher grape juice). We also read the last supper passage and the passage of when our ancestors were freed from slavery in Egypt.

What else has been going on? Well I moved to a new apartment, my little sister had my nephew, and I opened my online hair store. I was able to watch my sister give birth which was fascinating being that was the first time I’ve ever witnessed such a beautiful thing.

My New Place

My new apartment is very quiet and peaceful. I love it here.  The only issue is when people block my garage so I can’t park in it. The last time that happened I was able to speak to the owner of the vehicle whom kept doing it. I was pretty upset so I’m sure she won’t pull that mess again.

Ambrosia Hair

My haircare business has been going pretty well. I made over $900 in a week and a half and I hope it continues that way. I did however have a mishap where I had to recall a batch of hair creme because I forgot to put the preservative in it (during the week my sis had a baby, I moved, my friend got married whom my son was ring bearer and I had to pick up Micah 3.5 hours away to DJ her wedding). Thankfully it was a small batch which I promptly replaced with my customers. Everyone was accepting of my apology and allowed me to make it right accept for one customer whom did nothing but bash and complain about it. She asked for a refund and I gave her it still replacing her creme for free. I was really stressed out about this whole ordeal because this is my business which I depend on to pay the bills. I was so afraid that it would ruin me, but after everything I did to try to fix the issue I’ve come to the realization that you can’t please everyone no matter what you do. I exhaled deeply and decided to just let it go. I did my best and I believe my best is good enough even if everyone else doesn’t think so. That is how I intend on maintaining my business, by giving it my all. I am sure with prayer and hard work my company will be successful.

My Love Life

Micah and I are still together and very happy indeed. He will be moving back to Cleveland next month to attend school here since he was offered a teaching  job at the college during his senior year. I am so proud of my baby, and I can’t express enough how good he makes me feel. He is so positive and he supports me despite all my insecurities. I don’t want to rush a thing, but I have to admit this man has my heart.

#1 it has a grainy texture due to the slippery elm powder I use in it.

My solution is to replace the slippery elm powder with slippery elm extract. I plan on making my own extract for my next batch of leave-in conditioner so that will eliminate the graininess.

#2 it wasn’t detangling the hair well because it lacked the slip.

My solution was adding another ingredient to it called guar gum which gave the conditioner that added slip it needed. I’m also considering replacing the slippery elm altogether with marshmallow root extract but I’m going to test out these 2 formulas first and the one that works the best will be my final formulation. As of now, my conditioner is A LOT better than before.

So on to my personal life…

I am moving out of this dreadful place in 13 days! I also had to put a lock on my mailbox, because my stupid neighbor just kept going into my mailbox. I don’t need her looking through my mail and knowing my business. She has her own mailbox and if her mail is being put in my mailbox then she needs to talk to our carrier. I know I did and I went a step further and put a lock of the mailbox, because I don’t need her stealing my mail either. She loves conflict and she has a lot of issues so I believe it’s better this way.

Well, for the remainder of these final days here, I will be spending them with  Micah for the most part because he is on his way here right now as I type this. He is on Spring Break so I get to spend more time with him. He will also be joining me and the boys next weekend for Elijah’s Birthday Splash at Kalahari Resorts in Sandusky . He actually turned the big 9 on Wednesday, but since he begged me all year for a Kalahari birthday, I decided to do it during his Spring break.

So, now I am hearing the horn being blown for Shabbat service. I have to go now. Until next Shabbat…