Today I found a new website that’s fun to poke around on when your bored. It’s called Bored.com. It has all kinds of humorous and quite interesting sites and activities to steer you from boredom. This one site they had was a site that you could call some one from the computer and send them a message. I sent one to my sister. On the caller ID it read “Evil Witch” and when she answered it, it said “The evil witch is watching you.” She didn’t know who it was and blocked the number. I called maybe 10 minutes later her and she answered the phone and I said “Hey.” she said “Hi” and the I asked “Did the Evil Witch call you?” She said yeah and was cursing and her friends was laughing at her. I just busted out laughing.

Elijah went to the dentist today so tommorow I have to schedule his appointment to have his teeth pulled out….

Man it’s a small world….

And that’s all I’ll say about that.

I worked on the Strawberry Web Builder today. I added a HTML colorchart yesterday which I might do over on Thursday and make it bigger with all 216 colors. Today I added a simple HTML anatomy tutorial and a gradient tutorial. Tommorow I’ll add one for making grids. I always try to make sure that if I’m using stuff like grids, gradients and the like in my tutorials that I explain how to make them. So people can use them as well. I think I’ll add a favicon tutorial too. Then I’ll have to update the overview page and add the term for favicon to the Definitions.

 I can’t wait to get a mouse pen from Micro center. As soon as I get one I’ll be able to start working on Sam’s Manga. I really want my graphics to look good on Sams Manga, so I’m waiting to work on that site until I get the mouse pen. I might even get a scanner too, but first the mouse pen.

Well gotta go. I need to cook a quick dinner.

Yesterday I would’ve finished my post, but Jeremy and I decided to go to Don Plabo’s yesterday for dinner. He wanted to drink an alcoholic beverage for the first time so I decided to get one too. I never had a Long Island Ice Tea so I ordered it to see what it was like. I’ve heard so many good things about that drink and when I went to Cedar Point this summer the people in the Adult Bubble pool were ordering eithier a Pina Colada (had that), or Long Island Ice Tea’s (never had…). I orderd some other drink when I was there that was really fruity, yummy and weak, but yesterday I got the Long Island Ice Tea which was sooooo NASTY. I drank it anyway because I knew the drink was expensive and man it really messed me up. I kept laughing when nothing was funny, I felt like I was in three places at once and I couldn’t even enjoy my food. I don’t even remember how my food tasted. So that sucks. I will never drink again…NEVER. For New Years I will enjoy a glass of sparkling grape juice when we toast the New year in.

….You know what, I’d rather pray the New Year in.

Last night I had two dreams. The first one was stupid so I’d rather not even share that dumb dream which only made me angry with my sister because what she did. The second dream I had I was at the zoo and Elijah was playing on the playground. I had Destin with me, but he was a bit younger than he is now. He was probably 5 or 6 months old in the dream. For some reason the lions were free to roam and one chased me and I ran on the playground to the top of it. I knew that the lion wanted to eat Destin. I started calling for Elijah and after constantly calling for him he came to me. I looked down and noticed the lion had picked up Destins scent and was pacing at the bottom of the playground for him. Then a female lion showed up and was starring at me. I looked over and saw a lady that worked at the Zoo at the playground and I asked her to help me. I told her about the lions trying to eat Destin and she refused to help me saying “I’m sorry there is nothing I can do”. I pleaded for her help screaming at the top of my lungs and she still refused to help. Then I discovered I wasn’t holding Destin so I started panicing because instead of Destin I was holding a stuffed animal! I was so scard that I had dropped him, when Elijah told me he had him. I took Destin from Elijah and held him in my arms. Suddenly some how the male lion had climbed up on the playground and was on the opposite side of the playground at the top. We was seperated from the lion by a tunnel. I held Destin close to me starring at the lion in terror. The lion jumped toward us trying to reach the side we were on, but it missed and fell to the ground. When it fell to the ground it turned into a big pile of a clear jelly-type substance. Then the female lion did the same thing and when she hit the ground she also turned into the substance. For some reason I knew it was God who saved me and I started giving God glory. Then I woke up.

I wonder what that dream meant? I really want to find out what that meant. I’m going to find out what it meant before the end of the week. I know that dream was important.

Today is a better day. I’m not angry anymore about the workers compensation problem, or others dumb opinion of my website and it’s content. Who cares what anyone thinks anymore. I know that everything in my website is original and I know that I will get my money so who cares…so what!

Today I got those end tables to go with my lamps. I’m glad I did. The apartment looks really nice now. I even got my own computer desk that took forever to assemble. So now I have more room and I don’t have to share the desk with Jeremy’s laptop. I can put my printer up now, but I still need to buy a scanner from Micro Center. I’ll get that later when I buy a mouse pen.

When I finally do get that mouse pen I can really work on Sam’s Manga and draw the pictures so they won’t look crappy. It’s really hard drawing with a mouse.

Well gotta go…an argument is brewing…

I didn’t do much today, but go to my VOC Rehab site for some more testing…a math test, clerical, computer and artistic test *scoffs*. Man I thought I was going to have a headache because I was tired and didn’t eat lunch, but to have to take some stupid test with shapes that you have to focus to see, little numbers “this small” that you have to decide between 2 sets if they are the same and all sorts of algebra and math problems….Man I had a headache big time. My head was pounding. After the shapes and numbers test, they hit us with the math. I know I did way worse than I would have done if I was sober… Oh well. It was way too early in the morning for math. Way to early to be awake really.

I couldn’t wait to go home. The last time I was out there time just flew by. Well I guess I can say time went by fairly fast, I was just soooo tired.

At lunch I went to Pizza Hut and I could’ve sworn he only gave us 20 minutes to eat. I scarfed down 3 slices of pizza, a small salad and some fruit punch, went back to VOC Rehab and took some more torchering test and was released from prision at 3:30pm. Free at last! On the way home I stopped at Beachwood mall and picked up a lip exfoliater from Sephora and some more BE foundation since I was running low. Man I’ve never seen those many gay men in one place at a time…well once when I took a trip to Columbus. Gay men amaze me…

Anyways, After witnessing a car accident I went and picked up Destin from Jeremy’s Mom’s house and went to get him from work when I noticed I had a chest full of air. Man did that hurt…I should have never scarfed down that pizza like that, but what was I suppose to do when I only had 20 minutes to eat lunch? So I picked up Jeremy stopped to get an apple juice from Mcdonald’s to soothe the pain in my chest (all that did was make me burp, well I guess that’s what I needed to do) came home and that was the end of my day.

Today did suck.

The only fun part of the day was showing the lady at VOC rehab my website, but still…

Today did suck.

Vanilla Sugar Templates is finally finished and added to the sidebar. I’m trying a different kind of layout which may change very soon. I worked really hard on the layout I’m using, but for some reason I’m not satified with it. It’s the sidebar that I’m not happy with for some reason. I created my own logo which was fun! I did a search on vanilla and got pictures of vanilla plants and vanilla beans. I decided on a picture of the vanilla flower which I copied into Paint Shop Pro and painted the flower with the colors of my theme. That was so fun I decided to take one of my own pictures and paint my face. That took almost all day which kept me pretty occupied. I’m happy with the way it looks too! It looks like somthing you would see in the art museum. I even made it to an animation where the real picture of me transitions into the painting. I’m going to add the actual picture to my Artwork page so you can see what it looks like!

Other than that…today Elijah had got on my nerves all day long. That’s a first considering how difficult Destin is. I mean I was threatening him like every ten minutes or so because he kept jumping and putting movies in without my permission, sneaking cookies, terrorizing Destin, etc, etc. Can’t wait till the summer of 2007…I’ll be moving to Flordia finally and Elijah will be starting Kindergarden. I really want to move before he starts school so I gotta start saving and planning for the move.

Yeah, and I finally found a doctor for him to have his teeth removed. he has an appointment on Monday at 10am. I’ll be glad when it’s all over.

Well that’s all for today.

Today we didn’t do much, but the usual Saturday routine…go to mall, walk around, maybe eat take-out, buy a few things, argue and get on the internet. I did buy that Bare Minerals Peacock makeup set that I wanted.

Tonight I want to go out dancing. I asked my sister if she wanted to go, so I gotta call her back and see if she is. I hope so because sometimes Jeremy makes it suck. He stands up against the wall and I’m left dancing by myself because he won’t dance. I need some new friends…just everyone in this city SUCKS! People are not trust worthy, respectful or loyal anymore. You can bend over backwards for people…like I did for Kim and they will still dog you and turn their back on you. It’s funny because I never did anything to her, but help her. You know…giving her rides…driving from Mentor to her college to get her (which is over 30 miles away from Mentor) and taking her home, then driving back to Mentor without asking for a bit of gas money. I even watched her son and dropped him off at daycare…FREE OF CHARGE! And what did I get??? For her to turn her back on me for Anthony when I opened up to her. I really thought she was me friend. That’s okay though. At least I know she was never my friend. She just used me for what I could do for her becasue if she was my friend we would still be friends inspite of what happened between me and Anthony because it really didn’t have anything to do with her.

God thank-you for shedding light on me before I wasted anymore time letting people sponge me…THANK-YOU!

Notice anything different? Yep the banner for Sweet Vanilla Sugar is actually different! I was really going for a different look, but since I had dial-up I couldn’t download Corel Paint Shop XI. The next thing I know UPS is knocking at my door with the DSL. Now I have DSL and I’ve already made a new banner! Oh well….you know me. I’ll probably download Paint Shop Pro XI anyways, play around with it, make a new banner and use that one instead. Sweet Vanilla Sugar’s look is always changing. Just like me, because I’m always changing…for the better that is.

Sweet Vanilla Sugar is always improving. Just like me because I’m always improving…

[ahhh..] It feels good to have DSL, it sure beats dial up. I was downloading Paint Shop Pro, but after about 10 minutes I only downloaded about 1%. Today I am going to do the email form tutorial on Strawberry Web Builder. Yesterday I did fix the position of it. I’m also going to fix the position of Sam’s Manga and make it a little bigger. And on Monday I’m going to start working on Sam’s Manga.

To Do’s for Sam’s Manga

• Center Sam’s Manga
• Make Sam’s Manga larger
• Upload a larger banner
• Adjust css file to match width
• Delete Manga Forum
• Delete Database for Manga forum

And My to do’s:

• Purchase a used computer for $150
• Pay car note
• Get car fixed
• Get a longer data cord or reaarange furniture
• Call the oral surgeon for Elijah
• Pick up Elijah’s antibiotic’s

Maybe I’ll add Vanilla Sugar Templates to my website on Saturday since that won’t take as long because it will only be a one page website. I have to come up with a banner, layout and colors. I might stick with the vanilla and cinnamon color. Hmmm…Maybe a cinnamon background, vanilla banner and the content in a white background…???

 I don’t know I’ll think of something. I just don’t want it to look like Vanilla Sugar Web-design. Anyways I only made that website becausw a so-called friend suggested it. I never promoted it after we fell out. In fact I never promoted the site at all. So now I will create this website and promote it. At least it will put a little bit of money in my pocket. I might just use the profits towards the DSL bill and website a total of $17 bucks [Ha Ha...]

That’s about 2 customers…So my goal will be 2 customers a month. Anymore than that will be profit. I gotta go now. My Mom’s coming to get me so I can go to the bank and the doctor.

Later…

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Today I downloaded a plugin to change the way my admin area of my blog looks, but I hate it so I’m probably going to change it back to the way it looked normally. [These kid's are getting on my last nerves! Destin keeps crying and Elijah just won't listen! I'm am so tired of telling him to "stop" and "sit down", etc., etc.] Yesterday I edited all my entries for August. Today I’m going to adjust the Strawberry Web Builder’s position and finish the form email tutorial. I might edit the entires for September today…that’s if I get bored. That’s my activity for when I’m bored…editing my blog entries, checking for mispelled words, bad grammar, etc. I also decided on a new top navigation bar. It’s different from the old one and I’m quite content with it for now.

Other than that I gotta wash my clothes today and clean up a bit more.

I added a new link to the top navigation called “Pages”. It will have links to all my pages: My art work, favorite recipe’s, wishlist, peoms, profile, favorite links,  etc. Well I gotta go. I never started on the positioning of the Strawberry Web Builder and that was on the agenda for today.

I think I’m actually done with my blog as far as designing it goes. Today I set up the archives pages so it will be easier for visitors to browse them. I mean before, when you browsed the archives you would get the entire post, 5 post a page, etc. If there were 30 post within a month it would be difficult and time consuming to browse them. So I set the archives up so the title, date and number of comments would show only. I then added a plugin so more than 5 archives would show per page. So instead of 5 archives it will show 20 archives per page. I also customized my bullets for the archives so instead of the black circle it will be a pink sugar globe [he he...] Yes they are actually pink bubbles, but on sweetvanillasugar.com they are called pink sugar globes.

Well as far as my day has gone, I got up and ordered DSL from AT&T. Right now I’m using AOL. I noticed Elijah’s cheek was swollen so I called the dentist and got him an appointment today. He has to have his 2 back teeth pulled out! I’m really angry about this because my parent’s never listen…not even when it comes to my own kids!

 I asked my Mom to stop giving Elijah juice and milk in a sippy cup when he went to bed at night. That made Jea’neene’s teeth rotten and so did it rotten my nephew’s teeth. She would continue to do so anyway. One day I came over right before he went to bed and saw Elijah with the sippy cup (he spends the night over there on the weekends). That’s when I realized my request for the care of my child was being ignored so I took all the sippy cups.

But it didn’t stop there…she kept giving him candy, candy, candy! No matter how much I told her to stop. When I took Elijah to the doctor when he was 3, I was told he had 4 cavities! I told my Mom and she continued to give him candy anyways. So now he has a big swollen face and has to have oral surgery.

They never listen to me about anything. I did some studying and found out both Christmas and Easter are both pagan holidays. These holidays are a big hoax. A deception to the world from Satan himself! I told her and she got defensive, I tried to show her the scriptures in the bible that proved it. I even advised her to research the true nature of the holiday. I mean when in the Bible does it say “Observe Christmas and Easter.” No where! It only tells you to observe the sabbath day and keep it only and to break bread and drink wine in the rememberance of Jesus Christ. Not celebrate the pagan holiday easter, paint eggs and believe a bunny[spirit(demon)] is going to leave you a basket of goodies or celebrate “Christ-mass”, dress up a pine dree, leave cookies and milk on the table and expect a big fat white guy to some how jump down your chimely, leave you presents or coal depending on your behavior and whisk around the entire planet and do the same thing in one night! Yeah right!

For more information on the pagan holiday Easter Click here. And for a study on the orgin of both pagan holiday’s, Christmas and Easter click here.

My Mom doesn’t want to give up on celebrating the holiday. It’s a stronghold of Christmas and Easter she doesn’t want to let go, but sometimes to really do God’s work you have to let go of things that you love to do because it’s an abomination to him. I am not celebrating Christmas and neither will my children if I can help it. I’ve decided not to go over her house for Christmas too because I’m just as wrong if I go over there to celebrate it there and not here. She’ll just have to undertand.

Well that’s about it. I’m about to go clean up the house a bit before Jeremy comes home.

Today was very ,very, very, boring! Jeremy and I went to Gabriel Brothers, Big Lot’s, Dollar Tree and Walmart. Even though we went to so many places it was very boring. We even went to the CD game exchange and bought like 20 movies. I’m still bored…very bored, even with all the movies here to watch. I kinda want to go out and dance, but I’m also exhausted for some odd reason. The kid’s aren’t here and I’m tired and I have terrible sinus pressure. [Yawning]

Well I’m about to go take a nap.

Today was a pretty busy day, I’ve been out since this morning. I thought I had a Dr. appointment today at 10am, but it turned out it was at 1:30pm, so I had to find something to do for 3 1/2 hours. I didn’t want to go back home because the Dr. office isn’t close to where I live so I went to Comp USA to see how much their mouse pens are. They were all $79 and up. I rather go to Micro Center for the $60 one. I got a Mcgriddle [egg & cheese only] for myself, apple juice for Destin and chocolate milk for Elijah from Mcdonalds (That’s what Elijah wanted and Destin is only 10 months). Then I went to Sally’s Beauty Supply and got some blow dryer protectant for my lovely locks. After leaving Sally’s I put $10 in the car and went to Walmart and got Destin some formula, food, water, wipes and socks. I also grapped a 2 liter of Rootbeer and a big jug of apple juice because yesterday I bought some fruit punch from Giant Eagle [the Value Time kind] and man was it GROSS. I mean I’d rather drink Koolaid with no sugar or prune juice. That stuff really tastes that bad!

After my appointment I got home a little after 2pm. I then started cleaning up the house because it’s a disaster! After washing the dishes I sat at the computer for a short break and to see what time it was and the clock said 6:01pm. I sat there for a minute staring at the time.

“Oh God! I was suppose to get Jeremy at 6pm! I could not have been washing dishes that long!”

Looking outside didn’t help eithier because it was starting to get dark so I reached into my purse to check the clock on my key chain which read 3:26pm. I felt a lot better after that. With a sigh of relief I fixed the clock on the computer and started doing what I’m doing now….

Writing in my blog.

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A Poem of SincerityÂÂ

I know I really hurt you;

I know exactly how it feels;

to have your heart broken,

so bad it makes you ill.

I know about the dreams;

I know about the flashbacks;

I know about the fantasies;

When you take revenge.

But if you hear me out

I won’t rub it in

I won’t get defensive

And say hurtful things.

I am really sorry,

As sincere as can be.

From the top of my head;

to the soles of my feet;

I am sorry for what I did to you,

And sorry for what you did to me.

Please belive the words I say

When I say I apologize

Like the words of Rueben Studdard

I’m sorry.

I sorry for the lies,

I’m sorry for the hurt,

I’m sorry for the pain you feel,

I’m sorry for everything;

But most of all I’m sorry

for when we first met

because the intentions we had

weren’t never ever good at all

or pleasing to God’s eyes.

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