For starters to go back to around the time Israel was born, I discovered that African Americans are actually descendants of the children of Israel. The chapter of Deuteronomy 28 explains all the curses as well as the North Atlantic slave trade. I really don’t want to go into the details of this today (I will save that for a later date), but if you are interested you can open up your own Bible and read it for yourself. There’s more scripture proving this in the Bible, but that’s were to start. Anyways, the reason I brought this up is because a former classmate from elementary school hipped me to this truth. After that he and I and his wife became very close. I was even intending on moving to Georgia to be closer to him and her, but then some things happened that have caused me to reconsider my decision.

To start off, back in biblical times, the women always had their fathers cover them and choose their husbands. As you may know I have been single. I’ve dated and been in 1 actual relationship since my divorce that lasted about 5 months. The man turned out to be a complete and total leech, and was never with me for me because after he got what he wanted he used my beliefs as a reason to break it off. After that I dated a few different men, but those dates never resulted in anything. None of them were suitable and I even went before the Most High and asked him to remove any man that isn’t meant for me out of my life so that I would no longer waste my time. It seems he answered my prayers every time. So back to the covering, my former classmate/brother (not blood brother) suggested that he’d cover me and my children. I really didn’t want him to because of some things that happened in the past with him and I didn’t feel it was right for him to do so, but I allowed him. When men were interested he would be so strict and it seemed as if he would look for any reason to say no. Now in this day and age, no one, not even a man that knows he is a Hebrew Israelite descendant is going to be perfect. I didn’t like how my brother was going about it. He was being very judgmental and to be honest he is not no where close to perfection. He can’t even put away his foul language as I have, and he is too proud and arrogant.

Well, about a month or so ago I began talking to a man I used to work with. This man was interested back then, but I was involved with someone so we remained friends. I decided to not tell my brother or his wife about him because this man has no knowledge of his Hebraic heritage and I knew my brother would use that as ammo to destroy any chances of me talking to him. I first began talking to him on the phone, and then we met at a coffee shop and talked, played “Hanging with Friends“, and just chilled. We went to the mall and walked around and just talked and talked. He even came over on the sabbath and listened to the lesson and had dinner with me and the boys. It was really nice that he was willing to be apart of my world. I haven’t met too many men that would even take the time to listen to a lesson. I just knew this was the beginning of something beautiful. I liked him so much I even went before the Most High and told Him how I felt. The first sabbath he spent with me I was about to tell my brother, but they were so busy that I decided to wait. A few days later I was on the phone with his wife, while he was over my house and told her about him. As soon as I mentioned he had children I got a big “oh hell nawl”, SMH. Now if you are a reader of my blog, you know I have 4 children so what do I look like judging someone for how many kids they have???

Anyways, my brother wouldn’t even come to the phone he got a straight attitude so I ended my conversation with his wife and went to spend time with my man. A few days later now my brother is chatting with me on facebook asking me “whats up with some dude name Jeff coming over and spending shabbats (sabbaths) with you?” I told him about him and he immediately got an attitude and started going off on me like I did something wrong. Saying that I betrayed him because I didn’t tell him about him before I let him in my life. His anger was just inconceivable to me. He acted as if I cheated on him! I can understand being upset that I didn’t say anything in the beginning, but to be angry to that point just didn’t make any sense to me at all.

A few days later his wife asked me about my day. I was planning on going wine tasting with Jeff before the sabbath started. I told her about it and said I wished her and her husband could come and how I wished he wasn’t so angry with me about the situation. She then told me how the situation was crazy, called me foolish, and a liar. She told me I belonged to Jeff now and just went on and on making me feel very low. I felt like I was a child or something the way they talked to me instead of a grown woman. When I told her that “the last time I check I was a grown woman and I didn’t know I had to ask permission to spend time with anyone.” She just went off on me, SMH. Her and my brother were joined together prior to either of them knowing their heritage and they expect me to shun every man away that doesn’t know who they are. If I did that I would probably never end up with anyone. Most Hebrew men are married and the ones that aren’t my brother will just try to find something to say to destroy that chance. That was why I got to know this man before telling them. It really seemed like my brother was using his covering as a power tool. This is why I didn’t want him to cover me, I’d rather have my Father in heaven choose my husband for me. At least He will choose out of pure love, not paying respect to them rather they are in truth or not, but by their heart.

During shabbat service my brother used whatever he could use from the lesson to post comments that we could see(shabbat service is online in a chatroom) towards me. The comments were worded in a way that no one, but me would know what he was talking about. He would post things like “BETRAYAL” in the chatroom. He then started using the scriptures to his advantage by posting scriptures about judging on Facebook so I would see it to make it seem as if he was right to judge someone he didn’t even know or didn’t even try to get to know.

I could have sworn the Messiah himself said this:

“Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.” – Matthew 7:1-5

I was so tempted to post this as my status on Facebook, but my boyfriend urged me not to. He is right though, I shouldn’t feed into my brothers ignorance. It would make me just as unrighteous as he if I did, so I didn’t.

The way in which they have reacted has caused me to change my way of thinking with them. I don’t want to move to Georgia where they are anymore. My brother’s arrogance was causing me to reconsider my move before, but this situation sealed the deal with me on that note. My boyfriend doesn’t even want to talk to him anymore because he prejudged him without getting to know him first. I just don’t want him to think all Hebrew men are like my brother because they are not. I ended up talking to another Hebrew man about this situation and he said he was willing to teach my boyfriend about our culture and beliefs so that he’d understand them better. I’m grateful that I was able to meet him prior to this happening. Funny thing is my brother didn’t even want me to associate myself with this man and his teachings either because he didn’t agree with something they taught.

Well I know this entry was long-winded, but it was about time I got this off my chest and to let you all know whats been going on with me. I keep saying I will start writing in here at least once a week. Hopefully this time I can keep my word.

To replace koolaid as well as other artificial drinks, here’s my healthy fruit punch recipe:

2 1/2 cups sparkling water(club soda) CHILLED
1 cup cranberry juice
1 cup of pineapple juice
1/2 cup orange juice
1/2 cup pomegranate juice
6.5 oz (1 can) passion fruit nectar
1 lime
1 lemon

1. Mix all the juices and nectar together. Place in fridge for an hour to allow the flavors to blend.
2. Slice both lemon and lime. Toss ends in the trash.
3. Pour sparkling water over juice and add lemon and lime slices.
4. Serve and Enjoy!

Serves about 6

Do you know the women from the boards took my video and posted it on the forum adding more fuel to the fire?! They said I was unprofessional for posting the video. Maybe I was, idk, but I never posted that video for them. It was a personal vblog just to relieve some of the stress I was under. Maybe I should not have taken any of it personal. Maybe I should’ve just made my vblog on Viddler and posted it here instead. With that said I feel like a lot of this has caused me to lose business, but not to fret. This will pass and I believe my business will recover from this.

The only thing I can do is continue to make good products. Promote them as much as I can and provide excellent customer service to my customers. I will also learn to handle my stress a lot better, by only venting offline where it can’t be seen nor heard by the online community since I know now how much people are watching me. I can honestly say that this has been a learning experience.

Things I intend on improving business wise:

My hair creme: I will make sure that everything is emulsified properly before adding the preservative to prevent any oil separation

New labels: Right now the labels aren’t water proof so I intend on replacing them with waterproof ones by next month.

Organization: I am usual organized, but I can honestly say that I need to improve on this business wise by making sure I have everything in stock needed

Credit Card Processor: Currently the processor I am with actually holds a large amount of each sale I make for 3 months at a time. They are now holding over $500 of my earnings. I can’t improve my business with large holds like that. With that said I am currently in the process of changing my processor to one that doesn’t do this.

Well that’s it. Even though my business has been hurt by this it can and will recover from it. I have a few things up my sleeve to get my name out there with positivity attached to it, including offering free samples to popular natural haircare sites and channels on Youtube. I also plan on holding a few natural haircare conferences this summer to get my line out locally.