Summer is coming to an end which really sucks. I hate cold weather, but then again, I bought these cute white Eskimo boots to wear when it gets cold. I also have a cute pair of browns ones (a different style of course!) that keep, my feet so cozy and warm in the winter. About 2 years ago I bought a pair of rose colored Timberland boots, because they were different. All the girls at the time were wearing the white and pink boots and I as always want to be different. That’s why I haven’t bought a red belt yet. Because everyone has a red belt unless I can find a belt that is so unique in style that it stands out from the rest.

Back to the Timberlands…those boots cost me $89 and they didn’t do anything, but look nice! I put the Tims on when it was icy thinking they could grip better and I slipped. Not to mention they don’t keep my feet warm. Then I came across these cute brown Eskimo boots lined with fur that only cost $20 and I never slipped in them and they keep my feet warm. I still have the Tim’s because I’m not going to toss a pair of $89 in the trash, but I may not wear them at all this Winter. I think I only wore them once last year.

I also started working on my fall and winter wardrobe. I bought a cute pair of mid-rise jeans from Wet-Seal. I hate low-rise jeans because your butt is guaranteed to show when you sit down especially when you actually have a butt. I don’t need anymore jeans I have way to many (even though I know I’m going to buy more anyway, I love jeans!. I bought this cute school girl outfit too! It’s a gray pleated skirt and a white button up top with gray strips and a pair of knee high black, gray and white socks. It’s so cute! I think I’m going to wear that with my white Eskimo boots. I still need to buy some sweaters and tops that can be layered. I want to buy a cream sweater with a hood and those cute pom poms on it. I think that is so cute. I also want to buy some tops made from the long-johns material so I can layer them under my tops. I have to get my pink wool coat fixed because 3 of the button’s came off. We’ll that’s enough about clothes and shopping. On to another subject…

I finally started getting down to business on the Strawberry Web Builder. I finished the CSS tutorial, link me page and started on the graphics tutorial. That’s going to take the longest because I have to add a lot of graphics to the tutorial to show examples. I also added some new link-me buttons to my link me page for Sweetvanillasugar. I’m going to change the banner of Sweetvanillasugar.com. It’s going to stay pink and the letters are going to be the same. but the design will be different. I have to wait to go to Jeremy’s Mom’s house to start on that because he has Paint Shop Pro on his computer, the fonts I used and the colors I used saved on his computer. I can’t wait till I move out and get settled in in October so I can get the internet and work on website form there.

I was thinking about using a outside site to host my link-me buttons so if I get a lot of people using my buttons I won’t run out of bandwidth. Or have to pay more. I’m going to surf the net and see if I can find a really good graphic hosting site with good uptime so I can use their space. Until I find someone reliable I’ll just use my own.

I’m just going to use my own sites space. If my site does go down because I’ve used all my bandwidth, then I’ll go to an outside company and use their space for me link-me buttons.

Didn’t get much sleep last night because these people next door had their music blasted until about 2am in the morning. I then heard someone knocking on a door and then the music stopped. I guess someone called the police. I finally went to sleep after that. When I woke up at about 10:30am. Everyone had called my phone. I had to call everyone back because I was so tired I didn’t hear my cell phone ring. I’m really grumpy when I don’t get any rest so I had to get some sleep. My head is still pounding! Why do people have to be so RUDE? Some people have no consideration for others. Why would you play your music so loud all night like no one else can hear it? I hope they got a ticket or something for disturbing the peace because they deserved one. That’s one of the reasons why I stayed in Mentor; because you don’t have to deal with people or disturbances like that. I hope when I move it’s not like that over there. I’m a country girl and I like it quiet and away from the city.

I got approved for the apartment today. I have to put a deposit of $495 on Friday and I have to pay them first and last month rent on October 2nd which will be $752 because first month rent is half off. I have to pay so much because I get workers compensation and my credit is horrible, but I still got the apartment. At least I’ll have a chance to save up to move in for a month.

Today I finished the tutorial for CSS on the Strawberry Web Builder. I might make a few minor adjustments later to make it even easier to understand, but I’m going to leave it the way it is right now.

I talked to Jenny from coolcherrycream.com and told her I was sorry about the email because she wrote a entry that made me feel bad about my email. She said she was fine and no hard feelings about everything because she understands that people use similair styles. I’m still happy with the changes I made to the Web Builder. I like it better than the way it was before.

I gotta go now because I have to pick up Jeremy’s toolbox from Anthony. We got in an argument about people calling my cell phone, but I don’t care. I’m not going to turn my phone off or kick my friends to the curb because of him.

Later…

I had a few complaints about the “Jeremy’s Blog” link I added to my blog because it contained some personal emotions that should not have been displayed publicly so I decided to remove the link completely. Jeremy and I talked and he decided to create a new blog called VIMs (Very Important Ministry). So I changed the link to point to the VIMs link.

I think I might put the comment link back on my blog so people can post comments. I didn’t want to before because I don’t want anyone saying anything mean if I say something to upset them. I know I can look over the comments before they can be displayed to the public. I might add a link or I might not…I think I’ll sleep on that.

There’s a lot of things I want to work on within myself so I can become a better person, a better Mother and a better woman. I’m going to my Mother’s church on Sunday because I’m in need of spiritual healing and deliverance. My mom’s pastor has that gift. Maybe I should go on Friday too. I know they have healing service on Friday, but I don’t know if it’s every Friday or only on certain Friday’s. I’ll just call her and ask her. Jeremy has this book called “The Three Battle Fields”. It’s about how people get under a satanic attack in the mind and in church. There’s another one, but I don’t remember. Jeremy was different before he was delivered. He was jealous, mean and a whole lot of other things. He’s different now, even though he gets mad about certain things. He actually has a reason to be mad. I need to start praying again. I used to pray a lot. It’s like I strayed from God and as soon as I started to get close to him again I strayed even further. I don’t want to stray away anymore.

I am still waiting on a reply from the lady at the apartments to see if I got approved. She hasn’t called me yet. She said she was going to call yesterday, but never did. Maybe she will call today. I’ll call her if she doesn’t call me by 4pm. I really hope I get approved. Elijah and Destin are going to share their room. I may even paint their walls blue and add a sports border. I already have furniture. I just need to buy a coffee table, end tables, 2 lamps, a computer and a table for it to go on. The apartment comes with blinds which is good so I don’t have to buy curtains.

Jeremy has he first blog! I helped him set it up a couple of days ago. I tried to convince him to let me create him a layout for his blog instead of using the premade layouts, but he still wanted to use the layout he picked. I hate premade layouts because almost everyone uses them. It’s hard to find a blog that was designed personally. I would never want my blog to look like anyone else’s.

I’ve been trying to think of another website idea. I was thinking about creating another girls-only site that you can join, but there’s a draw back….it’s on for GIRLS. I want a website that people can sign up for or maybe I should create a fansite of a big website that a lot of people go to. That way I could really get my name out there. I don’t want to be just another blog. I want to stand out. I mean I’m not JUST another blog….I don’t use premade layouts like everyone else. Today I’m going to add some meta-tags to my webpages.

I need to start saving my money for moving out. I’m planning to save 200 from every check I get and my entire check I get from Chris. I should have about $1000 saved by October, if I save the way I planned.

I went to Geauga Lake and I a lot of fun. I took Elijah and we got in the water for a couple hours. I got him to go down the water slides and he liked them. Jeremy and his Mom wanted to leave early so they left and Ja’nika stayed with me. That’s when we really started having fun. We rode everything in the park except the water rides. We got on the Denominater 3 times, twice in the front seat. Then I bought a Elijah a glow toy to take home to him. I wanted a piece of pizza so bad. Ja’nika and I rushed to the pizza stand and order a slice of cheese pizza. It smelled sooooo good and it was a big slice. After paying for it I looked down at the pizza and what did I find? A big nasty mosquito smack dab in the center of the slice with its legs spread like it was on a crucifix. I was disgusted and furious! I was so angry I tossed the pizza on the counter, looked at the cashier and said in the most angriest stern voice: “I don’t want that s***!” I got my money back from them, but I was still upset because I really wanted a slice of pizza. Maybe I’ll go get a slice of pizza from some where today. I never cursed like that before, but that really pissed me off!

I’m changing the Strawberry Web Builders entire layout again. I liked the layout a girl used on a website called coolcherrycream.com because it was cute and different so I decided to try out her a layout, but with the Strawberry Web Builder theme. I then read a entry she had in her blog complaining about people copying her layout, but using a different color scheme so I’m going to change it completely. I’ll keep the banner and background because those are original, but I’m going to change the way the links are displayed in the top navigation and change the way the border changes with each page. I didn’t really like that effect anyway.

If someone mimicked my layout a bit I wouldn’t get upset, but flattered that someone liked my layout enough to try it on their website. So that’s that. The layout will be changed by the end of the day. I’ll then drop her an email saying I read her blog entry and I changed my whole layout since she was so upset about it. I don’t care. The layout isn’t all that anyway. I think that’s why I never really liked the layout anyway because it wasn’t really truely original. So I will change it and that’s all there is to it.

A Copy of the email I sent:

Hi Jenny,

I read your blog entry complaining about people using your layouts and yes I did admire the layout you used for your website tutorials and I tried a similar layout for a few weeks on my Strawberry Web Builder website. I’ve had my strawberry web builder for years. It was called the Strawberry Webbie Builder at first about 2 years ago when I first built it under 2 different websites (neopetsonly & leahs-webbie), but I thought that sounded childish so I changed it to web builder instead (more on that in the About section of sweetvanillasugar). Anyways if I was you I’d be flattered that someone like my layout that much that they would use it on their website. But because you were so upset I changed the layout completely. You don’t have to worry about me admiring your layouts and using them to see if they work for me. Besides I am a wonderful artist and am beyond creative with the love for originality.

Best Regards,

Samara

[email removed]

I think the reason why I’ve been so down and upset is because I’m at home with my Mom and Dad and it’s so negative over there. I get lied on, talked about when I’m not present, complained about (for doing nothing),etc. I could feel the tension when I came back from Geauga Lake. It’s so much chaos and people being two-faced. I don’t think I can handle staying there for a month. It’s really been breaking me down emotionally. I’ve been in a bad mood every single day since I moved back there. I haven’t even had any sleep for two straight days. My Dad is so mean and selfish. He prays several times a day and says he’s a Muslim, but he is not humble at all.

I want to learn how to create my own calendar plugin for my blog. I tried every single plugin they have available and they all don’t do what I want. The ones that do do what I want don’t work. I tried making sure I did everything correctly and they still fail to work, so I have to enter my important dates myself by changing the sidebar. That sucks. If I could learn to do my own plugin then it will be perfect. Otherwise I’m just going to have to continue to enter the dates myself.

I finally submitted my application to the apartments the other day. Hopefully I will get approved for the 2brm. The lady told me she was going to let me know today or Monday. It would be great to know today so I won’t be anticipating getting the apartment and get denied. Which will totally suck. Especially after all the stuff I had to go through to get the application completely filled out with all the necessary documents that went along with it.

Today my church is having a concert for praise and worship. I was going to dress up, but I decided not to. It’s not really our concert anyway. It’s a visiting church concert, we just have to open up with 3 or 4 praise and worship songs. I hate when they want to sing songs that I don’t know and they expect you to know the songs after one rehearsal. One of the songs I don’t even remember. I’ll try, that’s all I can do.

I can’t wait till October so I can have my own place to myself set up the way I want. No irritating nastiness that I hate to deal with, just my own habits that I can live with. After a while you get so irritated by the grossness you just stop caring altogether. It won’t be that way this time, I’m going to make sure of it and without having to yell about it either.

On Saturday we are going to Geauga Lake again. I’m pretty sure I’ll have more fun than I had on Tuesday. It really sucked. The park closed at 8pm and we didn’t get there until 2pm leaving us 6 hours to ride. Everyone wanted to get in the water first which took 3 hours. I didn’t want to get wet because I didn’t want my hair wet. Then when we finally got a chance to ride the rollercoasters we only had a hour and a half left. Not to mention all the rides sucked since I’ve already been to Cedar Point and I bumped my head on the Villian giving me an instant headache.

I’m thinking about redesigning Vanilla Sugar Web-Design. It’s not the professional look I’m going for. I’m going to keep the color scheme, but change the way the banner looks. I may even add navigation links in the footer. I’ve been adding links to all my websites in the footer anyway to make it easier to get around. I just finished doing that yesterday.

I want Vanilla Sugar webdesign to look a bit more professional than it looks now. I didn’t put much time or effort into the sites design at all. I mean my web-design site actually resembles my blog to a degree. So for todays agenda I need to:

• Redesign Vanilla Sugar Web-Design
• Redesign a new top banner
• Rewrite and improve index page of site
• Possibly Add a navigation in the footer

This may take a while to finish. I need to design the banner using Paint Shop and come up with a new layout for my site. I’m so glad I used CSS for Vanilla Sugar Web-design because it will be easier to change the entire sites layout.

Added at 11:49pm…

I’ve finally finished redesigning Vanilla Sugar Web-design. It looks a lot more professional and I’m happy with the results. I actually did a web search for “webmaster”, to see what webmaster service sites looked like. I wanted to get an idea of how to design Vanilla Sugar Wed-design.

While surfing I learned a new css trick! The z-index property. It makes text and images overlap. I decided to use this to give the top navigation a cool look.

I actually added two top navigations to organize the links better. I first put my links about the site (Home, FAQ, Contact, etc,) at the very top and the other links overlaps the banner and main text field.

What took so long for me to finish is that I added required field-forms to my form on the quote page and I would purposely not fill out one of the required forms to see what happens. This took me to an ugly default error 400 page. Which I feel is totally unprofessional. The error page would not even say why you got an error. How would someone know that they missed filling out something? So I created a custom error page, but I couldn’t get it to point to the page without using .htaccess.

.htaccess should only be used when it really is an error, like a missing page or broken link. Not a missing form field. After about an hour of trying to debug the problem I finally figured out what tag to use in the form fields which was right in front of me. Duh!

Anyways…

I’m thinking about redesigning the Strawberry Web Builder too. I’m not really feeling the layout either. I like the background and the banner, but it’s just the main-text part that really bugs me. Can’t think of how I should change it though. I wanted all my layouts to be different and unique, but that layout just seems sloppy to me. I guess tomorrow I’ll think of something.

Goodnight.

Today I started working on my my website tutorial site. It’s coming along pretty good. I changed the graphics a bit because my background was a jpeg which didn’t look sharp so I had to do it over and save it as a gif. I then did my banner over because it was too big and it needed some green added to it. I also added a cool top navigation bar that matches the page you click on! I also started working on my HTML tutorials. I want the site to help people create a simple website. I don’t want to go any further than that because it will take almost a year or more to put everything about web-design on my website.

I’m still trying to think of ideas for a couple more websites that I would like to add to sweetvanillasugar.com. I was thinking about a cooking site since I like to cook.

Nah…Too much work.

I had 3 different websites before this one. My first site was about girl problems, dealing with self-esteem issues, embarrassing situations, sexual education and more. It was called jensgirlsonly.com…Even though people loved it, I think it sucked.

The next website was neopetsonly.com, but I never worked on the site much. Neopets quickly bore me.

My third site was leahs-webbie.com. It was better than the first two, but I soon got bored with it too and deleted it.

Along comes site #4 Sweetvanillasugar.com…

This time I’m going to stick with this site. Besides I need it for my webdesign company and I love my blog layout way too much to delete it. I remember when I first decided to create this blog and I looked all over the internet looking for someone whom designed their blogs from scratch. I couldn’t find nothing, but premade templates. Where are all the blogs that are designed by the author? I wanted to get an idea of what one should look like. I had no luck so I had to think of a design myself. That’s why I can’t let my site go again.

I love you sweetvanillasugar!