I know I haven’t written anything in here in a while, but besides the obvious(not having a PC), I’ve been at work all week. Today is actually my first off day since Sunday, and I will NEVER work 5 straight days in a row(especially 3-11pm) again while I’m pregnant. I am so drained right now and I thought last night was going to be an easy one given the fact that we aren’t supposed to get anyone up on the weekend, but low and behold, the night shift supervisor had a list of extra things to do. It was already bad enough that I had the hardest chore given to me last night, which is to clean and disinfect 4 bathrooms and the laundry room. We then had to wake up 10 elderly developmentally disabled adults and have them go in the restroom for a tornado drill at 12:30am. Naturally they weren’t very happy about that at all. On top of that, she also wanted us to clean out the garage. As soon as I was able to sit down for a few minutes, once I was done with the bathrooms now my co-workers want me to get up and help clean out the garage! I know I’m not going to make it to August 27th, with this baby…

I’ve been very uncomfortable lately regarding my pregnancy. I’ve been having contractions which I guess to be Braxton Hicks contractions. They have been quite painful like a level or 2 above a menstrual cramp. I’ve also been having a load of pressure and sometimes, it hurts just from the baby moving. I can’t wait for this pregnancy to end. I’m tired of being uncomfortable and I can’t stand not having my old figure! I’m used to a flat tummy, smaller breasts, and smaller hips. This is not working for me at all and sometimes I feel so discouraged, nasty, and ugly at times no matter how much people tell me that I’m pretty. I just don’t feel it. I had to spend my entire summer like this, unable to do much of anything fun other than catch a few movies and lunch or dinner somewhere, but as far as enjoying the other festivities of the summer I missed out. Never again. I’ve decided that I am going to get either my tubes tied or the Paraguard IUD until I go into menopause. I will no longer sacrifice my body and life to carry a child for some asshole.