Well after constantly trying to get the plugins to switch from theme to theme on my blog to work. I give up. Maybe in a later time I’ll try, but right now I don’t have the energy to keep trying to debug and troubleshoot with those stupid plugins. Besides Destin is getting on my nerves and right now I’m so irritated!

I cooked dinner for Jeremy, the boys and myself at around 6:30pm. Jeremy got off of work at 6pm and it’s almost 9pm! That’s why I don’t cook or anything for him because when I do he never shows up. If I put on lingerie or something and try to surprise him he never shows up and then I fall asleep and he comes in late. He’s always complaining about me not cooking and when I do he is never there to eat it. I tried calling his Mom’s and the line is constantly busy everytime I call. I called at 7pm and at 8pm. I just called about 10 minutes ago and the line was still busy. I walk to the window to see if I see his car out there and no car.

Maybe I should just give up on this whole thing altogether. Maybe one day I’ll come across someone who will appreciate the little things I do. I can’t get mad anymore. That’s the way it always has been and that’s the way it’ll always be. He’ll never change. I’ll always be waiting on him…always waiting…always being stood up…always being let down.

*Sigh*

I really wish God would send me someone who appreciates me. Someone who will love me with a fully committed, pure, tender Godly love. Someone who is sweet and gentle. Someone who is understanding, Someone who will play the role of a man the way God intends. Someone who will be there for me and my children always. Someone that I don’t have to wait on. Someone who will not let me down. Someone who loves me like Jesus loves the church.

And in return I will be a Proverbs 31 wife. Loving him with a compassionate, forgiving, tranquil love. I would also be understanding, forever faithful because he is forever faithful to me. I will humble myself to my Godly husband because he loves me with all his soul. I will be there for him always and he would never have to worry or wait on me. I will love my husband the way God intends me to because God is the one whom taught me how to love in the first place.

How I wish for a man like that…

*Sigh*