I went to church today which felt kind of awkward since I haven’t been there in a month. I’ve been so tired and every Sunday I was either worn out or hindered, but today I decided to go. I was tired of my Mom nagging me about going and coincidently she wasn’t even there this Sunday.

When service was over Destin went dashing to the door with Elijah on his tail and I ran after them in embarrassment. When I was on my way out the door the Pastor told me that God has a job for me and that’s why Satan has been trying to destroy me.

I feel like I’ve been being attacked from the beginning of my life and I’ll be glad when the attacks or whatever they are will come to a final end. I kind of knew that it was something going on because I’ve been singled out from the beginning to receive all the negative energy. It’s time to start receiving some positive energy now. All these obstacles and problems are starting to get old and played out to the point where I don’t even care anymore because I’m so used to it now.

I have to find a way to get this apartment painted back white before August begins so I can have that out the way. Then I’ll only have the packing, and cleaning to do. I have to buy some oven cleaner to clean the oven and I will have to spot clean the carpet to get any stains out of it. I also have to buy some paint remover just in case I make any mistakes so I can clean it up. I’ll be so glad when this is all done and I’m in Florida. I really hate this apartment with a total passion now.

I had the windows open last night and the next day I discover like 5 or more nasty flies in my apartment. There’s no food open because everything is cleaned up, but they keep appearing. I think their coming through one of the windows and when I checked the windows a lot of the screens are just totally screwed up. I can’t sit in this apartment with all the windows closed just to have peace from unwanted pest in the summer, but I can’t live with flies flying all over my home. It’s gross.

I hate this place.