Today my feelings are hurt once again. I keep being lied to. Jeremy lies so much and he can’t ever be truthful. No telling how many more secrets he has that I don’t know about. Man everyone is so disgusting to me because of there lifestyles. Here I am trying to live like Christ and be completely honest and humble and people still lie.

I’m am building such a hatred for these so-called people of God that are doing Satans work in the dark. *Scoffs* I know I shouldn’t hate anyone, but who can anyone trust? The people you think you can trust (church people) are the worst kind. At least wordly people you already know what’s up…what you see is what you get.

I will know the real from the fake by their fruits Matt 7:15-23. So where is the real? All I find is fake men and women of God! Where’s the real 5-fold ministry of the true Living God? I mean when you look at a teacher or pastor you have to look at their life and how they live and ask yourself this question:

Does this person’s lifestyle line up with the Word of God?

If it doesn’t then you need to run…run away as fast as you can! Don’t look back like Lot’s wife did, just run!

*Sigh*

I remember when I asked God to tell me if Jeremy was the man for me. I waited and one day at church I was starring at Jeremy. I don’t know why…He hadn’t done anything wrong, but that’s when I received my answer…God said no. Today I’m going to ask for confirmation. If God say’s no again then forget it. I’ll be obedient and move on.

I believe God said no because Jeremy isn’t honest at all. He lies and no telling what I’d be getting myself into if I married him. But who knows, it could be other reasons why He said no. It doesn’t matter what they are. If He said no it’s no. If God want’s me to know why He will reveal it.ÂÂ

I just had to write in my blog. My feelings were hurt and I have to express them. I’m always being lied to. I wish I can find someone who will be honest with me. This really sucks! Maybe I should ask God to deliver me from this situation too! I have the strength to leave. I might fast again for 3 days, I’ll ask God and if he says “No” then it will have to be over. I can only be obedient. God will show me what to do.