Last night I cried myself to sleep because of something I gave up. All week I thought about this special and wonderful something that I had and I gave it up. Last night after I prayed I lied in my bed and started thinking about it again. The tears started pouring and I couldn’t stop crying. I want it back so bad. I wish I never gave it up. I wish I kept it. I regret giving it away with all my heart and soul and it’s killing me inside. I wish I could go back in time and get it back.

Things may have been different if I kept it…I can never get it back. I feel so terrible. I wonder what overcame me? I thought I was making the best decision for me and the kids. Now I regret the decision…

I never thought this would effect me like this, but it makes me want to cry…