I’ve come to my final conclusion of what I have decided to do with my life. Based on the conversation with my husband as well as the way things have been going at home, I have decided to end my marriage. Why? For 3 very good reasons.

1. I am at peace and without stress when he is gone. I have found that life at home with the just the boys and I is very peaceful. I am not irritated or grossed out or even stressed to say the least. I don’t have to deal with the nasty habits of my husband or by his mere presence when he is doing things that annoy me.

2. My husband justified just about everything he has done wrong. I am tired of this same game of back and forth. Every time I brought up an issue he had a justification for it. He even acted like I was wrong for questioning him about the woman calling the phone that I knew nothing about. This was his reason for walking out. If you have a phone that your wife knows nothing about and then a woman calls it, your wife has the right to ask you about it, but he can’t see my point. Instead he keeps going on about me accusing him, etc. There are so many things have observed during this marriage, that I have found that I cannot tolerate nor live with. Maybe if we had waited for about a year before getting married we would’ve known. Maybe there are things he can’t stand about me either, I don’t know. I’ve asked him several times and he never has an answer. It doesn’t really matter now though, and I am not prepared to try to work this out neither do I desire to. I already know that if I brought up the issues he would become defensive and argumentative and nothing will be solved. This is why it took me a week to ask about the woman calling his phone. I have come to the conclusion that we are just incompatible and it would be best to go our separate ways.

3. I really want to be with someone whom fears and respects God. I need someone with similar values and morals. Someone whom prays and reads the Bible just as much as I do. Who will show me respect and will not exploit my sons to hostile behavior and language. I had my children before this marriage and I am trying to instill certain values and morals within them, but it becomes very difficult when the male whom they look up to as an example is doing the complete opposite. Even though my baby father Jeremy, was a horrible boyfriend I never had these many issues with him when I lived with him. He had some disgusting habits, but it wasn’t this horrible. With that said it’s just best for us to end the marriage for the sake of both of our happiness.

I don’t know if he thinks the conversation we had the other day just repaired everything, but to leave me for asking about a girl calling a cell phone I had no knowledge of is not a good enough reason to walk out on a marriage. That did not sit to well with me and if something that small can make him leave, then I do not want to continue to do this with him. He leaves for the stupidest reasons and justifies it by bringing up the 2 times I left because he cursed me out and another time when after having my income tax seized because of him owing back taxes, having the phone cut off because of him, etc. I then had to listen to his Dad dog me out while he just sat there and played stupid. He didn’t even defend me so I couldn’t take anymore and left and he didn’t even apologize. Instead he justified it, made excuses and to add insult to injury had the nerve to pack his things and leave as well.

It’s just too much. Maybe we can come to a civil agreement regarding the bills and this baby and move on. This is what I hope for anyway.