My Past is My Past
Well I just got back from church and the Senior Pastor from another church preached from John 8…boy did he preach! I guess God really wants this passage to be emphasized since this is the second time I’ve heard this message. Basically the message was: “While you are focused on your future, people are busy looking at your past.” He said if we didn’t go through the things we have been through then we wouldn’t be where we are today and God allows these things because they are neccessary.
That’s all I have to say everyone. My Past is my Past. While you are focused on trying to condemn me for my past I’m busy moving foward to my bright and promising future, This is my season!
If you want to read about the first time I received this message go to the John 8 titled entry.
I AM FOCUS ON MY FUTURE ALSO I LOVE MY NEW WAY THE ONLY THING I WAS RAISED TO TAKE CARE OF FAMILY YET YOU WALK AWAY FROM THE THINGS YOU DONE IS GREAT BUT WHAT ABOUT THE PEOPLE YOU HURT IN YOUR WALK… IT LIKE I CAN KILL PEOPLE ON MONDAY THEN ON WENDSDAY I SAY THATS THE PAST IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME WHEN THE CRIME IS DONE.. WHAT YOU SHOULD DO IS THIS WALK FOWARD BETTER YOURSELF BE A BETTER PERSON WHILE YOU ARE DOING THAT YOU ARE BLESSING THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU AS WELL AS YOURSELF AND YOUR PAST WOULD BE SUCH A GOOD THING.. DO NOT HURT PEOPLE DAYLY AND EXCUSE YOURSELF TO AVOID TROUBLE RATHER SAY I AM SORRY AND TRY TO MAKE IT RIGHT BY THAT MAN OR WOMEN… GOD HAS A PLACE FOR YOU BUT AND FOR ME SO I WATCH LEARN AND LISTEN….. MY LIFE HAS GOT BETTER BUT MY HEART FOR YOU HAS NOT CHANGED. I CANNO JUGDE YOU BUT I CAN BECOME WISE IN MY LIFE DESCIONS…NOTE WE CANNOT HIDE BEHIND GODS WORDS… ANTHONY DOES THAT ALOT USE GOD TO PROTECT HIS ACTIONS… ALSO NOTE: A FIREND OF A FRIEND OF A FRIEND THAT I KNOW HAS JUST WENT THROGHT THE SAME PASTOR STUFF LAST SATERDAY.. THEN HE ASKED HER TO COME TO CHURCH AND TODAY SEEN HIM IN THE PULL PIT THEY HAS A THREE SUOME WITH HER HIM AND ANOTHER MAN YET HE WILL GO TELL HIS SAINT THE RIGHT THING TO DO HOW TO LOVE QUOTE BIBLE VIERSES PEOPLE WOULD RASIE THE HANDS SAY THE ANOITING IS ON ME THE HOLY GHOST PREACH PRAY CRY AND THEN LEAVE SO IS THAT HIS PAST OR IS THIS JUST A COVER UP YOU ARE NOT A COVER UP BE TRUE TO YOU AND GOD. JENNIFER I PRAYED FOR YOU ALOT AND I AM FALSE I BEEN WORKING HARD TO SHUT THESE CHURCHES DOWN AND DO RIGHT I HAVE TO HIDE BEHIND A BEER NO ONE PRAYS FOR YOUR PAST IS OUR FUTUTRE THIS IS A MOVEMENT..IF PEOPLE FORGET THAT BLACK PEOPLE WERE SLAVES AND SAY THATS THE PAST THEY WILL BE BLINDED BY THE MENTALLY OF SLAVERY NOW… THE PAST IS A VERY IMPORTANT PASRT OF THE FUTURE JUST DO NOT REPEAT SINS GOD HAS BLESS YOU//
YOUR PAST IS YOUR PAST. SO IS MINE AND IT GOOD TO KNOW SO AS A WOMEN OF GOD THERE SHOULD BE NO WORDS SPREAD ABOUT ANY PAST BUT THAT HAS NOT BEEN A CASE… THE SEASON IS AREADY SET THIS IS THE LORDS PEOPLE WORLD TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT…THAT IS A BAD ATTITIUE TO HAVE… HONESTY IS IN THE HEART SO MUCH KNOWLEGE WILL AWAKEN A PERSON JUST ONE WORD CAN CREATE PROBLEMS AND GLORY
IT IS REAL HARD TO FORGIVE BUT TO MAKE IT TO HEAVEN THAT IS SUCH I MUST OBTAIN …SO I MUST TEST MYSELF WITH YOU HUH YOUR PAST IS YOUR PAST IT JUST BAD… HONESTLY COULD YOU BE WITH SOMEONE OR FORGIVE A MAN FOR TAKING YOUR CHILDREN OUT OF YUR HANDS IN YOUR FACE .. AND IN THE SAME BREATH SAY A FEW DAYS LATER SORRY LEAVE YOU WITH OUT KIDS AND NO WERE TO RUN BRKEN DOWN NOTHING TO OFFER AND WHEN YOU CRY COMPLAIN OF LOST KIDS.. THAT MAN SAY MY PAST IS MY PAST LEAVE ME ALONE HOW EASY WOULD YOU PAIN GROW… THEN TURN AROUND AND GIVE YOU BIBLE VERES TO STUDY IN FORGIVING WHEN HE CLEARLY MISSED HY SHALL NOT KILL …. THIS IS AN EXAMPLE OF MY PAIN… I UNDERSTOOD YOU FOR YEARS. NOW UNDERSTAND ME A TRUE WOMEN OF GOD WOULD HUMBLELY APOLOGISE WITHOUT ANY NEED.. JUST TO SAY MAN I AM SORRY WHAT CAN I DO….
FOR MY MISTAKES TO YOU MY LOVE I AM SORRY WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP YOU AS APERSON ON THIS PLANET IN MY SINS AGAINST YOU..THAT IS THE FIRST STEP TO A HELPFUL FORGIVENESS WE CALL IT ((((LOVE)))) BUT AS A HUMAN WE RUN AWAY EMOTIONALLY AND LEAVE NO LOVE FOR OUR ON FAMILIES AND EXPECT MONEY ECT TO HELP BACK….
First to compare me to a someone whom murdered someones kids doesn’t make any since because that is clearly not the issue so that makes no sense at all.
You continue to act like you are the only one hurt in this situation when you are in fact guilty of cheating even during the same time that I did, but you ignore the fact that you have cheated on me recently. You say I’m using the Word to say what I did was okay when in fact I am not. Again I will state to you that I am only to be condemn before a holy God. You have not right to condemn me because your hands are just as dirty as mine. You are constantly throwing stones at me when you are also full of sin. I have told you the truth, repented and asked God to restore me. I’ve apologized for my actions and I have not dangled anyone in your face or been insensitive about the issue like you have.
You continued to dangle the woman in my face and allowed her to come into your home. You refused to tell the woman to leave making it even more difficult for me to heal from your betrayel. You rubbed the fact that you cheated on me in my face and acted like I deserved it when I did nothing, but be faithful and loyal despite my pain from all the surgeries and your first betrayel. On top of that you lied about cheating for 2 years before telling me the truth.
I wouldn’t continue to allow people into to my home day after day and refuse to tell them to leave when you are there because of my shame. If I love you so dearly then my own shame would be put aside for your feelings. I wouldn’t keep lying to you about something I did because God will then punish me for my lies, deceit and my mistake if I don’t confess and sincerely repent. I also would not rub my mistake it your face because no one deserves that type of treatment. God didn’t put us here to be mistreated and abused emotionally by others.
Ask God to show you how to love before trying to tell me what love is because you clearly have no clue. Honestly as of now I owe you nothing. You are not my husband and like I said before MY PAST IS MY PAST.