I am feeling something I have never felt before and it is crazy. I always thought I couldn’t learn to love anyone, but myself, my children, and close family members, but I’ve some how fallen in love and the way I feel is like nothing I have ever felt before…

I sometimes feel like screaming, crying, sighing. It makes me take a deep breathe just to keep my cool. Sometimes I even feel weak all over. The love I have for this man has bound me so deeply and I am vulnerable to him… I can’t stop saying “I love you.” to him. This is insane, but I’ve never been so happy.

Never in a million years would I think my first love Brian would be the man I would want to spend the rest of my life with.

I have to admit my love life is actually a good one for once. Here I was looking for love and it was always there in front of me. I guess I just had to find my way and I finally have and I’m loving every bit of it…

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The economy has been having a personal effect on me and that is the reason why my site was down. It is very difficult to find decent employment and I remain at my parents house still in search for work. Sometimes I think about becoming a police officer just to have a decent job. It’s not something I want to do with a passion, but if push comes to shove and that is the only option left I must. I’ve been in Ohio since July 27th and I have yet to find consistent employment. I wonder what January has in store for me? Will I finally find a job so I can become independent or will it continue to be the same issue…

I hope you like the new layout. I know I do. It isn’t exactly my theme because as you already know I don’t have my own computer right now so this is a premade theme edited by me of course. I just finished making the changes today although I can’t get the Twitter bar to look just right..oh well… It still serves it’s purpose.