I can’t take it anymore. I’m tired of sleepless nights because I miss my kids to death! Last night was terrible. I didn’t cry myself to sleep this time, but I tossed and turned all night! I got up and kept doing a search on continental airlines for plane tickets to see the cost.

In total to go to Ohio and come back with my boys is $611.60.

Man that is a lot especially for someone with no job. I was trying to put off buying the tickets until I got a job because I wanted to know what my schedule was going to be like before leaving so I can work my flight into my job schedule and not miss work, but it doesn’t seem like that’s going to work out at all. I wanted to make sure I had a job secured before getting them, but it’s killing me to be away from them.

If I wait too long the tickets will be $500 each making me pay a whooping $2000 to go to Ohio and come back with my boys!

I feel like my heart is going to pop out of my chest. I can’t sleep and I barely have an appetite because I miss them so much. I’m losing my mind.

After tossing and turning and getting up all night I finally went ahead a bought the plane tickets going on faith alone that I will have a job in the next two weeks somewhere. I couldn’t take it anymore. That only leaves me with about $1100 to live off of and pay the rent for November until I gain employment somewhere. I hope someone hires me soon and everything works out with putting the boys in daycare.

After I bought the plane ticket I prayed for God to put it on someone’s heart to hire me with a decent job that’s going to fit with my schedule. I then read the Bible until I was too tired to hold my eyes open anymore.

Being away from kids and trying to locate employment is like slow torture.

I know that I’m still going to have trouble sleeping because I still miss them.