samaraThe last few weeks have been a bit scary regarding my pregnancy. I’ve been very uncomfortable and I’ve been also experiencing symptoms that I did not expect to happen until at least 2 weeks into August. With it still being June, this is not good.
I’ve been having a lot of pelvic pressure lately. I figured it was normal, since this is my 4th child, so maybe my pelvic muscles are more lax, but the pressure can be very unbearable and cause me to not be able to move. I also experienced the lost of my mucus plug last week. This is not a good sign at all. The final straw for me was the morning of my monthly exam, my belly looked different. It seemed like my baby dropped(not a good sign this early in subsequent pregnancies). My belly wasn’t poking out as much, instead it was a lot lower than before. Even though my child can still reach his/her feet into my ribs, everyone can definitely see that my belly has changed.
When I went in to the doctor I told her my symptoms and she tested me for Chlamydia and Gonorrhea which came back negative. She also gave me a test called fetal-fibronectin, this test is suppose to let the doctor know if I am at risk for going into preterm labor. I was also put on a monitor to see if I was contracting because if so the midwife wanted me to get a steroid injection(a series of 2). I was so sure everything was going to be fine the other day, and the test would come back negative. My friend was with me during everything. He is really a good friend. It’s funny, even though we are just friends and this is not his child, he has shown more support than my sorry excuse for a husband. He’s been to my last two appointments and with me when I had to get my steroid shots. All I can do is frown upon Brian and his incompetence and lack of concern. There is a Bible verse about men like him, so he will pay for what he has done eventually.
I’ve went over all the factors that may be the cause of what is going on right now and the only thing I can blame it on is stress. Brian stressed me out throughout the entire marriage as well as my first 6-7 months of pregnancy by the things he did as well as his destructive actions of abandoning me. As a result I was forced to get a job in my final trimester of pregnancy as well as the whole divorce situation. I blame him for all of this. I also blame myself for being blind to the type of man he really was. I really hope my child doesn’t come early. I don’t need the added stress and I really need to work as much as I can so I can provide for my family before having this child.
If you are reading this, please keep me and my unborn child in your prayers…