I can relate to this song fully. It almost sounds like it’s me singing the words…

Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how’d it be if he had loved me, truly loved me, yes
I learned awhile ago that kind of thing never happens for me

And so I go around and just pretend love is not for me, I play the circus clown around my friends, make ‘em laugh then they won’t see
That you never let em see you sweat don’t want them to think, the pain runs deep, Lord knows its killin’ me

Chorus:
So I put on my makeup, put a smile on my face and if anyone asks me, everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one knows the joke is on me
Cause I’m dyin’ inside with my pride and a smile on my face, on my face

Sing it la la, la la la, la la la 2x

Sometimes I sit at home,by the phone, hoping he might call me, but he don’t call me
But then I realize, that dreams come true aren’t for girls like me, not like me

And so I go around with my head up like it ain’t no thang
and when the boys are ’round with all my friends, I’m into other things
Cause, you never let ‘em see you sweat
Don’t want them to thing the pain runs deep, Lord knows its killin me

Chorus

Its not that easy, sometimes its hard to(face the truth)its not the life that I would choose, but what else can I do, if he don’t love me, if he don’t want me.
I’m not about to sit around,and let myself go

Chorus

Sing it la la, la la la, la la la, la la la la la la

By Tamia