For starters I have only one week left at my job . Hopefully I can get through this week without any crazy mishaps coming from Diane’s drug addict husband. Each day I become more and more irritated with just being there and I already made up my mind that if her husband drops by during my final weeks there I will promptly make it my business to leave.

In other news, Brian and I purchased our wedding bands in white gold this week. We are going to try to get them engraved next week if not this weekend. It should only be about $50 to get them engraved at the jeweler we decided to take them to. Speaking of our wedding. If I haven’t mentioned already, our wedding website is located at sweetvanillasugar.COM.

Today I took the boys to see a movie called “Ponyo” by Hayao Miyazaki. Miyazaki has done it again! That movie was the cutest little kid’s movie I’ve ever seen. I thought “Spirited Away” was good, but this movie was simply adorable. If you have small children you should take them to see this movie my 7 year-old, 3 year-old, and almost 2 year-old loved it!

Thinking about my future plans (yes I know I’m all over the place today), I was thinking about some goals I will be able to accomplish now knowing that I won’t have my current job depriving me anymore; meaning I can start focusing more on Growblackhair.NET. I’ll be able to promote my site more, by writing more articles, adding content, and blogging on a regular basis. I know my site has a lot of potential and with more time and effort put into it, I know my site can bring in a decent income. I never received a Google check until I actually launched this site and I’m not going to give up on it just yet. I’ve made money already from my site, and things can only get better.

…honeybush rooibos tea is so calming and relaxing. Time to get whined down and get some sleep.

Mine was kind of a drag because I regret not going to work and my mom stresses so much when it comes to holidays that I get stressed. Man I am not looking forward to Christmas. I don’t believe in it and I really don’t want to be stressed out about it unnecessarily– if that’s even an actual word.

Well I am in the process of trying to get my modeling career together. My family needs the money and this is something I really want to do. I believe I am talented, beautiful, and determined enough to succeed. I won a modeling/talent contract with Model Productions so I know I have what it takes! I just need to work towards it and stop procrastinating if I ever want to accomplish my goals.

I still will bartend, but modeling is going to be my main focus right now. I have my family here so babysitting won’t be an issue. It’s time for me to be happy. If I can’t be happy when it comes to having a loving relationship then I will just be happy with myself and my beautiful boys and my career.

Rizwan, thanks for your words of encouragement in the email you sent me. You really made my day.

Well I’m off to check my Google ads. The last time I checked I was at a little over $40 in earnings this month. So I’m surprised to see where I’m at now.

Other than that I’m still trying to get my Google Ads revenue to increase. I’ve completely optimized my webpage and adding another ad unit and I try to update the blog and site weekly. I need to make more than $100 ever 3 months. I need to start making $100 a month and then $500 and then $1000+ a month. Those are my goals for the site.

Well I’m off to update my sites. I can’t wait until I can move into my own place and purchase another computer so I can work on my other websites and update my theme. I am really itching to create a new theme for the site, but I can’t until I have my own pc.

I have some really big plans for next month too! I plan on moving out as soon as I get a job as a bartender. I’m going to save all the money I make the first week of bartending for my security deposit and first month rent while I look for an apartment to move into. I’m going to just get a 2 bedroom apartment and let the boys have the master bedroom until I decide to purchase my own home. The following week I plan on furnishing my apartment, but the two main things I’m going to get first are a bed for me and bunk beds for the boys. Then all the other items will come. It may take a month to completely furnish my apartment the way I want to, but I believe I will have just about everything I need by the end of November. I want an apartment where the heat is included with the rent because I don’t want to be stuck paying no gas bill, especially in Ohio.

In my love life I really like my boyfriend. I was a bit confused on what we were to each other until I asked him the other night and he said I was his girlfriend. I guess I just needed to hear that for reassurance because he is so different from other guys and there has been times when I have talked to someone, but neither one of us knew when we were official because no one said it verbally. He kept saying that I was acting confused like I was unsure of how he felt about me. I have to admit sometimes we can read people wrong and as a woman sometimes you just need to hear someone actually say it to reassure you of how they feel. I mean I may think you feel one way about me, but you may not feel that way because it’s only my asumption.

I really really like him and it may blossom into love soon. He’s very sweet, we have SO MUCH in common, he’s smart, and he can hold such a good conversation. He’s not an idiot like most of the jerks I’ve dated.

BARTENDING SCHOOL

Today we learned how to make “highballs” which are drinks like “Rum & Coke”, or “Vodka & Orange Juice”. We actually learned how to make 27 different highballs in total. Yesterday we learned how to make shooters (party drinks), but I don’t remember how many we made yeasterday. I was so out of it so I studied the recipes all night and while I was at Elijah’s football practice.

This week is going by so fast and I’ll be a senior on Monday. Sometimes I wonder how I’m going to be able to remember all these drinks and master them in 14 days. I also still have to figure out the money issue. I applied for cash assistance so I can pay for school since I’m not working and I’m still waiting so I’m going to call my caseworker tomorrow and see what’s taking so long. I really need that money by the second of October so I can pay for my classes or I’ll have to extend my payments which will cause me to have to pay more money. I still owe them $355. It should come next week…

I guess.

So I’ve been using Google Adsense for about 10 months now and so far I’ve only made a total of $17.35. Google doesn’t disperse any checks until you reach a minimum of $100 and at the rate of $17 every 10 months it will be about 6 years before I get that check, but I won’t be wasting my time with Google that long to even see that check.

I’m going to give Google 6 more months from today. To me you have to be a really big website with lots of traffic and people clicking on ads to make money off of them and people don’t come to my site to click on ads at all so right now I’m second guessing myself as to why I even wasted my time putting their ads on my site.

According to Google I’ve given 23,556 ad impressions since March 2007 and I’ve had 75 clicks and 164 search queries with 16 clicks, but I only got paid in total is a lousy $17.35. Man that sucks.

I remember when I first decided to add Google to my site. My plan was to just use these ads to pay for my site every month, but in 10 months Google Adsense has only paid for one month of service and I’m $2.60 away from paying for 2 months of service. Hmmm… I think I’m really wasting my time with these stupid ads, but we’ll see in 6 months.

If nothing works out I’ll just sell my own ad space to anyone whom wants to advertise. Even if it is just 5 bucks for a whole year. At least I wouldn’t have to wait on getting the 5 bucks.