I have been so busy. It seems like my hair website has become a full-time job and I’ve been working overtime in addition to my 40 hours a week! If I’m not doing that I’m on Craiglist looking for decent furniture or pricing nursery furniture and caring for the boys. I don’t even f ind time to update my blog anymore. I am so determined to make Growblackhair.NET a success as well as my haircare line that I will be launching soon. There have been times where I stayed up well after 5am, researching ingredients, prices, etc. Right now it’s after 4am. I was up again researching the prices of the ingredients I want to use, the costs of the packaging supplies, and other steps needed to take to make sure my grand opening runs smoothly.

I really don’t want to forget anything, but this child I’m carrying  makes me so forgetful at times, in addition to making my face breakout constantly. None of my boys ever did this! Speaking of my baby, we’ve come up with baby names! I’m not sharing them online just yet, but I am really happy with the female name I picked. It just came to me out of no where because for the life of me I couldn’t come up with not one idea. If this is a girl I don’t want the name to be common. Also I’ve run out of ideas for a boy seeing that I already have 3 so I left that up to Brian.

Anyways, back to my haircare line… I plan on launching my store in either July or September. Maybe I should wait until September when the baby is already born, but we will see. I just don’t want to launch it in July and when August comes, people’s orders are delayed due to me going into labor, staying at the hospital, and recovering from the birth. I may just wait until my birthday to launch the site now that I think about it because  I don’t know how successful the grand opening will be. I may sell all my inventory or I  may not sell a thing. I’ll just have to cross my fingers and pray on it. I’ve already figured out my starting capital for an inventory of about 30 items per product to start out. If I wait until September to launch I will have 90% of the starting capital just from my Google revenue alone if I continue to earn the consistent amounts I’ve been earning. That is why I always prewrite my articles to keep my site constantly updated. I plan on writing about a months worth of prewritten articles in August to cover me until October because of the baby and my hair product site. I just have to come up with some good ideas because I never write useless garbage on my site. I save that for my personal blog lol :lol:  .  Anyways enough of my rambling, I have an article idea and I must write it before I retire.

Well, I had my ultrasound at 21 weeks exactly on Friday. Everything went well and the baby is doing fine. He/She is so cute and tiny. His/Her hands were so small and so where the feet. I expected the feet and hands to be small, but he/she looked so small and dainty to me. I really hope that God answered my prayers and finally blessed me with a daughter because this is my final child. If my prayers are indeed answered that will be proof that he does hear and answer my prayers. Anyways, if it isn’t so then or well. I will still love and cherish my child regardless. It just will be a wonderful thing to be able to have a daughter and watch her grow up and become a woman of God. I refused to find out the gender to avoid any disappointment. I will like to enjoy my pregnancy without feeling a bit upset because my prayers weren’t answered.

I will update this post later with a few ultrasound pics real soon.

Anyways, I’ve been busy with my GrowBlackHair.NET site as usual. I plan on creating my own haircare line very soon as well. The first products I will offer will be my very own hair butter for twists, braids, and locks. A natural pomade which I have perfected YAY! A natural leave-in conditioner (Haven’t came up with a perfect concoction just yet.) I will also offer a sulfate free shampoo, clay based deep conditioner, moisturizing hair spray, and natural hair gel in the near future.

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I am so tired right now, but I really wanted to update my site so as I site here listening to John Legend’s “Everybody Knows” and sipping on warm rooibos and honeybush tea I wonder what to write about…

For starters I have only one week left at my job . Hopefully I can get through this week without any crazy mishaps coming from Diane’s drug addict husband. Each day I become more and more irritated with just being there and I already made up my mind that if her husband drops by during my final weeks there I will promptly make it my business to leave.

In other news, Brian and I purchased our wedding bands in white gold this week. We are going to try to get them engraved next week if not this weekend. It should only be about $50 to get them engraved at the jeweler we decided to take them to. Speaking of our wedding. If I haven’t mentioned already, our wedding website is located at sweetvanillasugar.COM.

Today I took the boys to see a movie called “Ponyo” by Hayao Miyazaki. Miyazaki has done it again! That movie was the cutest little kid’s movie I’ve ever seen. I thought “Spirited Away” was good, but this movie was simply adorable. If you have small children you should take them to see this movie my 7 year-old, 3 year-old, and almost 2 year-old loved it!

Thinking about my future plans (yes I know I’m all over the place today), I was thinking about some goals I will be able to accomplish now knowing that I won’t have my current job depriving me anymore; meaning I can start focusing more on Growblackhair.NET. I’ll be able to promote my site more, by writing more articles, adding content, and blogging on a regular basis. I know my site has a lot of potential and with more time and effort put into it, I know my site can bring in a decent income. I never received a Google check until I actually launched this site and I’m not going to give up on it just yet. I’ve made money already from my site, and things can only get better.

…honeybush rooibos tea is so calming and relaxing. Time to get whined down and get some sleep.

Yes, I am not dead yet. Just busy as hell…LOL!

I know I haven’t updated in weeks. School, work, my boys, Brian, and GrowBlackHair.net have been my main focus the last couple of weeks. I’m doing well in school and I’m in the second to last week of my first session of classes. My session actually ends on June 17th! Go figure!

I’ve been working in the morning now, but after discussing my future with Brian, he wants me to quit my job in the next few months and just focus on the boys and school. So this is when GrowBlackHair.net comes into play. Over the course of the next few months before I do quit I want GrowBlackHair.net to be bringing in my income than what I’ve been making. Currently my site only makes a little over $100 every 3 months. I need that to increase. Every three months is not good enough. My ultimate goal is atleast $2000 per month. I know that this can be achieved with time and patience. As of last month I received 3312 unique visitors. I can’t wait to start averaging 10,000 unique visitors. I’ve come along way though. My unique visitors have increased since January which was only 1769. I’ve noticed that my number of visitors increase each month so at this rate the money will start accumulating and my goal will finally be reached.

I know I haven’t been updating in a while, between work, trying to find another job, applying  for school, and being a model on SecondLife I haven’t found time to do much of anything extra. Sometimes SL is the only way I can spend time with Brian too because of work or not having anyone that wants to watch the boys without having lots of complaints about it. I’ve decided that today I’m going to write some preset articles for GrowBlackHair.NET. I think it will be easier on me if I wrote at least 3 articles on the weekend to  be posted throughout the week. That way my blog will seem like it is active throughout the week when I’m busy doing other things. GrowBlackHair.NET has been a source of income for me and I intend to keep that way and increase my revenue if I can.

Well I have to be off to update some GrowBlackHair.NET.

I’ve also decide to show you some more pics from SL:

This is mee at an amusement park Brian(Laureate) and I went to. As you can see I recently bought a new skin that looked more like my skin tone than the previous one.

Brian and I at the amusement park again.

Brian and I at the Zen Springs.

I have some model shots too that look really good, like an actually model photo, but I haven’t downloaded them to my computer yet so I’ll add them later this week!

Lately I’ve found that I’ve been a lot meaner than normal since I returned from Tampa, FL. I never really had a temper and I used to be rather humble, laid back, and quiet. I’m still laid back and some what quiet, but humble? Forget it. It’s like I’m a ticking time bomb. I hate feeling angry, but I find that I go off more than usual and I stay mad for quite a while. I never stayed angry longer than maybe an hour, but the last time I was pissed, I was angry for a day and a half. I was so fucking angry so I just went to sleep to calm down, dreamed about what made me angry, and woke up just as angry as I was before I took a nap.

I’ve been through so much as a woman at the age of 25 and I believe all the things life has put me through is plays a big factor in why I have a “no B.S. attitude“. I don’t like being as mean as I am right now and I wish I could change that. I believe there is some things within myself that need to be confronted and put to rest in order to calm my temper some, but I don’t think I will be as humble and meek as I was 6 years ago. Honestly in the last week I’ve clocked out on 2 different people and was at the verge of exploding on Brian the other day.

I went off on some one today to an extinct, but I don’t feel I was in the wrong. You tell me:

A man asked me what kind of phone I had while I was on the bus texting my sister. I told him it was a Samsung. He then asked me was it a camera phone. I told him “yea”. He then asked me how old I was so I told him in a neutral tone “that is none of your business.” He said “God Bless You” and got up and went to another seat. When I got off the bus so did he and he walked passed me and said “You need to stop being so damn mean.” My response was “Fuck You!” I don’t owe it to him or no one else for that matter to tell my fucking age. That was just an invite for more personal questions leading to him asking for my number etc. I should have just told him to “leave me the fuck alone”. Then he could have said I was mean.

I know I need to work on my temper. I yelled at a woman in the gift shop yesterday when I took Elijah to the museum too because I feeled like she was nit picking at me. I feel bad about it now, but she really irritated the hell out of me. Well I have to wash and condition my hair. I plan on taking my braids out on April 17th and putting some more in sometime in May or June. I will be updating my natural hair growth progress on GrowBlackHair.NET. Check it out!

I decided to name this post Auricular because this word isn’t used very often. This post has nothing to do with the meaning of this word so it’s a more of a random title (More about this word later in the post).

I really hate the weather here. It is so cold today. It was 24 degrees today and that really sucks when you have to catch the bus. I had on 2 shirts, 2 hoodies, my wool coat, a pair of gloves, and a scarf and I was still cold! My hands were so cold that they hurt. I really feel sorry for anyone that is homeless in Ohio because the weather is absolutely dreadful. If I was homeless I would make it my business to move to warmer much more bearable climate even if I had to walk the whole way. I always find myself looking forward to the summer when I am in Ohio because that’s the only time the weather is actually bearable and won’t cause me to get ill. Any other time of the year the temperature is up and down like crazy and everyone is contracting Influenza. Luckily I’ve managed to avoid getting really sick which I have to credit my evasion of getting ill to taking vitamin C tablets daily.

In other news I spent today with Brian just as planned. I basically slept in his arms the whole time. All those nights where I only got 4 hours of sleep has finally caught up with me and I’ve been doing nothing, but sleeping  every time we’re together because that’s my only opportunity to actually get some sleep. I am still tired even now and of course Jeremiah is still up right now. *Sigh*

I decided to give Sweetvanillasugar a rest and focus on GrowBlackHair.NET more. That’s the site that has been making me money. My goal for the next 6 months is to get enough clicks to earn at least $100+ a month instead of every 2-3 months. My site comes up on the first page when the key words “grow black hair” are Googled, but I need to add more information and write more articles. At least 4 articles a month if not more. Sometimes I run out of ideas, but when I do I review a hair product until another idea comes to mind. Right now I’m currently in the process of reviewing Carol’s Daughter Hair Milk. I’ve gotten a lot of requests about this product so I went to Sephora and purchased a bottle to test it out on both natural and relaxed hair. If you want to read the review check out my site in a few weeks.

Last but not least, I deleted and edited my categories today. I had the category “Personal” and “Private” which are literary the same thing. I mean those are actually synonyms to each other so I decided to combine those entries and rename the category to “Auricular“, but who really uses that word or knows what it means? So I ended up changing it to “Confidential” instead. I also changed “Writings” to “Literary Works”  — a little more unique I must say.