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WTF?!

samara — Wed, 25 Aug 2010 15:01:27 +0000

Turns out the 2 receptionist that I talked to whom stated that I could be induced when I came in both lied. When I came into my appointment yesterday and asked to be induced I was told that they don’t do that unless it’s medically necessary or if I go 7 days past my due date. Man…. What a let down. I really need to go back to work soon and I’m tired of being miserable. She did however, strip my membranes to see if that would “naturally” put me into labor. She said I was 4cm dilated already, and very ripe and the baby was extremly low. After she did that she said that judging from what she felt that I would deliver very soon, probably even the following morning.

Well, it’s 10:54am and I am still fucking pregnant! Still uncomfortable with the same few contractions ever so often that I’ve been experiencing for about over a week now. This is becoming very discouraging. I go to see my regular midwife today at the hospital to see if I can be scheduled to come in and have my water broken. The midwife I saw yesterday said she could probably do it Friday, but that would interfere with Jeremiah’s party, because I would still be in the hospital on Sunday. This baby is going to screw up my sons party. I know it is, especially if nothing happens today, which I know it won’t. I should not have to wait 2 weeks after the 27th to give my baby son a birthday party. His birthday is on Friday and his party is on Sunday. He should be able to enjoy it with his mommy just like his brothers have. If I could I would’ve just had his party before his actual birthday if I knew this was going to happen!

Planned Induction

samara — Fri, 20 Aug 2010 15:05:38 +0000

So it seems like this baby has been giving me false alarms and basically playing games with me. It’s really crazy because with this being baby #4 I should not still be waiting for this baby to arrive. My last 2 children arrived early. Destin was 10 days early and Jeremiah was 15 days early. I am now 39 weeks pregnant STILL, and with only 7 days until my 40th week, I am starting to get really weary and discouraged. If you are a follower of my tweets, you’d know how miserable I am right now. I am tired of being fat and uncomfortable. The baby has since dropped and I can’t even cross my legs comfortably. This is yet another rare thing, because babies don’t usually drop in subsequent pregnancies until the onset of labor, which unfortunately hasn’t been the case for me. I really think this baby is taunting me. I’ve been walking every day at the mall, around the block, at the zoo, etc. Nothing seems to help labor start, and with all the walking I had to do in the first 6-7 months of my pregnancy when I had no vehicle, I can’t believe I’m still pregnant.

I’m tired of dealing with the feet in my rib cage, lack of sleep, frequent urination, and having to wear the same shit every week. So with that said, I’ve decided to ask to be induced on my next appointment. Jeremiah’s birthday party will be next Sunday and I need to go back to work soon. This baby is really interferring with a lot of those objectives so it’s time that I put matters into my own hands. I don’t have no unearned income like other single moms do. I have to work to pay my bills and the longer I’m on maternity leave the worst my financial situation will become. So with that said, if baby isn’t here before my appointment on Tuesday, expect to read about the baby sometime later next week when I get home from the hospital.

Backache will you please GO!

samara — Wed, 18 Aug 2010 03:30:28 +0000

My back has been killing me on and off for the past few days, but today it has been the worst yet since about 9pm. I mean it’s been constant. I usually do my walking, but today I’ve been so uncomfortable and tired. I had a bad night and I’ve just been plain uncomfortable today to the point where all I wanted to do was lay down or just sit with my feet up. Then the backache started and no matter what I do it hurts.

I went to my midwife today, whom stated that the baby dropped. It doesn’t seem like it. I am still walking around with a beachball of a tummy and the baby can still put her feet in my ribs no matter the position I am in. It’s worse at night though. I’ve had to lay on my right side for months which is becoming very uncomfortable because if I lay on my left side, in a matter of minutes I have feet in my ribcage causing a painful throbbing sensation which forces me back to my right side. With that said you can see why I haven’t gotten any rest. Now accompanied by the backache and it’s worst.

I don’t know what to call this pain, is it back labor? Or is it just terrible backache? Will I still be pregnant tomorrow? I really have no idea right now. All I can say is my back is killing me and I know laying down won’t help. I took a warm shower which made it feel a little better, but once the shower was done the pain came back even worse than before.

Baby’s Nursery

samara — Sun, 15 Aug 2010 22:38:27 +0000

I have to say, God has really blessed me big time. He has blessed me with the funds to be able to furnish my unborn child’s room, buy clothes, pay my bills, and replace the things that Brian took from me.

What he tried to take away, God has replaced and more…

So I now have a beautiful nursery among other things and my stress level is down to a 4 at the moment. Everything seems to have been working out in my favor since I’ve kept my faith. I know I am not perfect, but I do believe in God and I have faith in Him.

Other than that I am still my miserable self, because I really want this pregnancy to end. I hoped that the baby would arrive this week, but only time will tell. There’s no way I can predict when the baby will arrive. I do know, however, if I find that I might pass my due date I will be asking to be induced well before then. Anyways, here’s some photos of the awesome nursery I put together with Peanuts help of course(he did paint the walls blue for me lol!):

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I am tired of being pregnant

samara — Sat, 17 Jul 2010 17:13:45 +0000

I know I haven’t written anything in here in a while, but besides the obvious(not having a PC), I’ve been at work all week. Today is actually my first off day since Sunday, and I will NEVER work 5 straight days in a row(especially 3-11pm) again while I’m pregnant. I am so drained right now and I thought last night was going to be an easy one given the fact that we aren’t supposed to get anyone up on the weekend, but low and behold, the night shift supervisor had a list of extra things to do. It was already bad enough that I had the hardest chore given to me last night, which is to clean and disinfect 4 bathrooms and the laundry room. We then had to wake up 10 elderly developmentally disabled adults and have them go in the restroom for a tornado drill at 12:30am. Naturally they weren’t very happy about that at all. On top of that, she also wanted us to clean out the garage. As soon as I was able to sit down for a few minutes, once I was done with the bathrooms now my co-workers want me to get up and help clean out the garage! I know I’m not going to make it to August 27th, with this baby…

I’ve been very uncomfortable lately regarding my pregnancy. I’ve been having contractions which I guess to be Braxton Hicks contractions. They have been quite painful like a level or 2 above a menstrual cramp. I’ve also been having a load of pressure and sometimes, it hurts just from the baby moving. I can’t wait for this pregnancy to end. I’m tired of being uncomfortable and I can’t stand not having my old figure! I’m used to a flat tummy, smaller breasts, and smaller hips. This is not working for me at all and sometimes I feel so discouraged, nasty, and ugly at times no matter how much people tell me that I’m pretty. I just don’t feel it. I had to spend my entire summer like this, unable to do much of anything fun other than catch a few movies and lunch or dinner somewhere, but as far as enjoying the other festivities of the summer I missed out. Never again. I’ve decided that I am going to get either my tubes tied or the Paraguard IUD until I go into menopause. I will no longer sacrifice my body and life to carry a child for some asshole.