Yes, I am not dead yet. Just busy as hell…LOL!

I know I haven’t updated in weeks. School, work, my boys, Brian, and GrowBlackHair.net have been my main focus the last couple of weeks. I’m doing well in school and I’m in the second to last week of my first session of classes. My session actually ends on June 17th! Go figure!

I’ve been working in the morning now, but after discussing my future with Brian, he wants me to quit my job in the next few months and just focus on the boys and school. So this is when GrowBlackHair.net comes into play. Over the course of the next few months before I do quit I want GrowBlackHair.net to be bringing in my income than what I’ve been making. Currently my site only makes a little over $100 every 3 months. I need that to increase. Every three months is not good enough. My ultimate goal is atleast $2000 per month. I know that this can be achieved with time and patience. As of last month I received 3312 unique visitors. I can’t wait to start averaging 10,000 unique visitors. I’ve come along way though. My unique visitors have increased since January which was only 1769. I’ve noticed that my number of visitors increase each month so at this rate the money will start accumulating and my goal will finally be reached.

I know I haven’t updated in a while, but I have been really busy at work. The last few weeks I’ve been working 5, even 6 day weeks at times. I’ve been so wrapped up with work, starting school, and trying to get things settled here in our new place.

I started the Art Institute of Pittsburg Online Division on Friday. I am really excited about starting school and I can’t wait to learn some new web-design skills so I can put them to use on my current sites and start on building my online portfolio. I am planning to finish school in 4 years with my BA in Interactive Media/Web-design and I can’t wait. One thing for certain I am not planning on staying in dried up Ohio after I finish school.

I am planning on moving again to a state that will allow me to find a job in this field and Ohio is not the place for it. I really regret moving back here and I wish things didn’t work out the way they did because it sucks here. It took me over 9 months to find a crappy ass job getting paid $8/hour. I’ve been working 5 and 6 days a week with no more than 28-34 hours per week. I don’t even bring home enough to get a car. I can’t keep doing this. Something’s got to give. I’ve also found out that there’s a hiring freeze with the city so I may not ever get that city job. Cleveland is not the place to be right now. It’s all dried up like a sponge left out in the sun. Speaking of sun when are we going to get some? It’s the middle of May and today it was 57 degrees. WTF?! I’m really missing Florida right now…

Yesterday Brian and I took the boys to T.G.I. Fridays for dinner. It was really nice to have dinner together. This was a really nice weekend. I didn’t have to work so I was able to spend all my time with the boys and Brian without any interruptions. Everything was great until I read some ignorant shit on my website which I won’t even give much attention to. I’m tired of people acting younger than their age. Hell I live with a bunch of immature grown people which is highly irritating.

I’ve also found some new sites that offer products geared towards caring for natural hair. It’s really excited going natural and discovering new products that are made for my hair. Yesterday I tried two strand twists for the first time (not the weave ones), instead of the usual TWA I’ve been wearing and it  looks nice. Very Afrocentric, but nice.

I know I haven’t updated in a while I’ve been so busy playing SecondLife, and working, and getting ready to start school at the Art Institute of Pittsburg. Tri-C hasn’t been working out for me so I’ve decided that online education is better for me. I’ve always been tired because I have to do so much just to get to and from school and now that I have a new job it has put an even greater strain on me, so I’ve decided to withdraw and start off fresh at the Art Insitute of Pittsburg Online.

With today being Easter(Ishtar, Semiramis) am I totally disgusted by this holiday and it’s practices. If you are curious to know why see the link below:

http://www.allaboutjesuschrist.org/origin-of-easter.htm

For those of you that don’t know I do not condone Christmas either or any other traditional Christian holiday because that is just what they are traditions.

In other news, Brian and I have been talking about marriage and how the wedding will take place. In all honesty I shy away from the big grand wedding tradition and I would be quite satisfied with a small simple wedding with our guest list under 25 people. I would like to be married outside in a beautiful gown (not a wedding dress) with my hair dressed up with flowers. I’d like a wedding cake, and a simple reception with a homecooked meal with members of my own family being the chef’s instead of an expenisve ass caterer. I’d also like to go to Cancun, Mexico for my honeymoon if possible. I really don’t want anything more than that. I’m fairly a simple woman and I don’t ask for much at all in life or in a man for that matter. All I want is someone that will love me and my children and will treat me and my boys with the utmost respect. Someone that will actually be a “man”, whom will live up to every expectation of that word in a bibical tense, because in this present day and time it doesn’t take much to be a man and it saddens me.

Today was a rather easy day. I took my cardio/fitness class and then I had to make up the class I missed 2 weeks ago so I had a short lunch and then I took a yoga/pilates class to make up that day. It was rather refreshing. I didn’t feel sore afterward, but lighter and more relaxed when I left the class. I wouldn’t mind adding some yoga and pilates to my actual daily routine because it just might help me cope with the stress I have to deal with daily at home.  I also had to take two exam’s yesterday which I did not even know about. I need to start paying more attention to my syllabus, but lately I’ve been so tired and off track that I haven’t been as on top of things as I was when I first started school. Hopefully after the Spring break and a little rest I can get right back on track. I’m going to at least shoot for achieving that goal anyways.

At home the drama continues… Yesterday I came home and I was so exhausted. I was only home for about 20 minutes when my mom comes up to me and starts arguing about  my phone conversations because I was talking to Brian 2 nights ago about the previous entry and my sister was downstairs listening to my conversation. She then brought up my blog again. Just like the drama queen my sister is,  she waits until I’m gone and tells my mom what I talked about with Brian. What is her reasons? To create drama. It’s like she feeds off  that shit or something. My sister is so immature for someone whom just had a baby and typical she really doesn’t have a life because she is always wrapped up in what I’m doing. If she wasn’t my sister, me and her would’ve been fault and I would’ve successfully kicked her drama loving ass.

My mom wanted to start quoting the Bible about me turning the other cheek and trying to say I’m being the devils tool because I won’t allow my sister to continue to dog me out. She really don’t want to take it there with me concerning the Bible because I may not go to church, but I know my Bible very well and the Bible also states that what my sister is doing (Tattling & meddling) is a sin.

1 Timothy 5:13 And withal they learn to be idle, wandering about from house to house; and not only idle, but tattlers also and busybodies, speaking things which they ought not.

Anyways, I’m going to spend my Spring break resting, catching up on my math, spending time with the boys(getting Jeremiah on a better sleep schedule) and spending time with Brian as well. I won’t be sitting around at home being irritated and annoyed. I want my vacation/break to feel just like what it is…a break!

Today I spent the day with Brian. I was really tired and I decided to do most of my work at home and email it to my teacher. I am still very behind in my math. Today I spent the day with Brian. I was really tired and I decided to do most of my work at home and email it to my teacher. I am still very behind in my math.I wish we didn’t have to take math courses to get a degree for learning web-design and digital graphics. The whole class is online and they want you to do so much in a small amount of time. With everything that’s been going on including my sister having her baby early and all I’ve been losing focus on my studies for the last 2 weeks. I find myself tired all the time because I’ve been up late with Jeremiah and I’ve been doing even more around the house than before. I actually ended up going to Brian’s house and just sleeping the whole entire time!

I cleaned up my blog some more today and changed a few things. I ended up deleting my FAQ page because most of the questions are answered on my credits page so it served no purpose. I deleted my pages page and replaced it with a page called sites where my other sites will be located along with sites that I really admire. I also also decided to change my favicon (clear your cache to see it) and the calendar icon from the emerald to my original idea…a planet with rings. I just had to find a good tutorial on how to make a planet with rings. The emerald just took away from the layout completely, but now I am really happy with the way my site looks now.

Eternally-me.com is going to be launched officially on March 1st. The same day I will be deleting SweetVanillaSugar.com and making a temporary page until I make up my mind what i want to do with the domain. I’ve also added a ban plugin to my new blog so I won’t have to go through all the harassment I went through on sweetvanillasugar.com.

Today is the first day I decided to take my laptop to school. I brought it to school because I wanted to write in my blog while I was eating lunch and my sister is coming home today from the hospital so well you know. I paid way too much money to have something happen to my laptop, but I really don’t like taking it out the house either. Besides that it’s really nice to be able to use my laptop in the cafeteria for a little bit. Next time I will bring my charger so I can use it longer because it only has 2 1/2 hours of battery life.

I really wish I would’ve bought me some T.V. dinners for lunch. The only thing I will eat at school is cheese pizza and with my lactose intolerance it really isn’t a good idea even with taking a lactose pill which sometimes don’t seem to work for me.

Right now I’m contemplating if I want to go to class or if I want to just do my lab in the library and email it to my instructor. It was fairly easy to do this when we were in the Microsoft Word chapter, but now were are in the Excel chapter and even though I have trained and learned Excel in the past I still don’t know how to do everything, but my book will guide me how to complete the assignment. So maybe I will do it in the library and get it over with. I also really behind on Math. I plan on catching up completely during our Spring break. I really hate math. I hope I can complete all the assignments and pass the course. I’d be happy with a C.

I got my speech back today and I did horrible. I knew I didn’t prepare it well. My speech was about Relocating and I talked about the do’s and don’ts of relocating based on my Florida experience. I didn’t do very well. I was nervous as all hell so I ended up getting a 6.3 out of 10 which is not good. Next time my speech will be a lot better.

Today I found out that I was approved for a federal pell grant. I am so happy now because I can finally purchase my books so I can actually do my work. I have 2 weeks to catch up on my math. So as soon as I purchase my books I’m going to work my ass off to catch up on the math assignments.

I went to Koinonia Homes today to try to get hired back. I was told that I could always come back if I wanted to because I never left on bad terms so hopefully they will hire me back. I really hope so because at this point it doesn’t seem like there is anything else left when it comes to decent jobs in Ohio and I don’t know how much more I can take of my parents nonsense. I can’t even get a ride home from school without them complaining about it. Sometimes I grow tired of even discussing how they mistreat me so. It is pointless and talking to them doesn’t change a thing. I really hope God blesses me with a job very very soon so I can move out.

I applied for a job with the city in November and it was my understanding that if I didn’t get hired that they would refund me my $10 that I paid for the application. I’m still waiting to hear from them. That would be great to get a job with them because it’s $14 an hour and since my family are so inconsiderate about allowing me to use a vehicle or even get a ride I can just take the bus until I make enough to get myself a car.

I have something to be happy about today though! I have money for school now. I don’t have to drop out!! I’m going to work my ass off and try to make this count for something. I want to do web-design because I love it and if I can get a job doing something along that line I will not only be well off, but I will be happy too because it’s something that I’m good at.

I really like going to school because it gives me time to get out of the irritation and hell that my family puts me through on a daily basis, but waiting on late ass buses in extreme temperatures and waiting on financial aid really truly sucks. I am so tired of waiting for things. I am tired of waiting on a job, waiting on a change, waiting for people to pay whats due to them, waiting on everything! It seems like I’ve been waiting my whole life and no matter how much I try to make things change for the better I find myself still in the same predicament… waiting! I’m also tired of going to school for different things with the promise that something will happen for me just to gain more disappointment…*sigh*

I have to catch the bus in the cold to school, to look for work, and when I get a job to work. After today’s fiasco I wonder how that’s really going to work when public transportation proves non-reliable. It’s a shame that my family have 3 vehicles and my little sister can drive the car my mother pays for with her disability money to and from work, to have fun, to stay out all night with her boyfriend, but I can’t even use the car just to do something useful like finding a job, going to work and school. Instead I am told to catch the bus and when my boyfriend sends me money so I can catch the bus my Mom has the nerve to make a big ass fit over it. Am I suppose to be miserable and unhappy? It seems like they are only satisfied when I am. My sister puts everything and person before me and I am treated like the outcast or the stepchild. I hate it here! If it wasn’t for my kid’s I would leave and move to California with Brian just so I can get the fuck out of here.

I dreaded coming back here when I left Florida because I knew it was going to be nothing, but hell for me. Now I am waiting for my break so I can finally have the means to get my own spot and be away from my family whom can’t even help me do shit!

I started to school today and I’ve identified what classes are going to be an issue and what classes aren’t. I also dropped my Macintosh class because it requires me to be at school after 7pm which is something I’d rather not do because of the weather. I’ve also changed my speech class to one that starts at a later time so I won’t have to be at school until 10am. This is the last time I’m taking classes during the Spring semester while not having a car. They should call it the winter semester instead because it’s a blizzard outside right now and in Ohio you can expect cold weather from November until April or even May (When the semester ends!). I will be only taking Summer and Fall classes for now on.

My financial aid hasn’t come through yet either so I can’t even do any of my math assignments or purchase any of my books that I need for school. If I had a job I could do at least buy some of my books. I really wish I could get hired somewhere… Depending on how long it takes I will be behind unless I can borrow some money from someone to pay for the disk that goes with the class. I hope I am approved for financial assistance.

I have to wait on my sister to get off of work so I can get a ride home because it is too dangerous and cold to be catching the bus. While I’m waiting I’m going to make some more changes to my blog and start on the new natural hair care section on growblackhair.net.

Tonight will be my first day without my trainer! I’m actually going to take home some money for once! I’m excited, but also nervous because tonight is going to be booming due to the fact that the football game is going to be starting today. I’m going to be worked to the bone, but I’m going to have a stack of cash by the end of the night!

Saturday I plan on going to the mall so I can buy an outfit for Saturday. I don’t plan on spending no more then $50 on my outfit. I’m leaning towards a cute skirt, sweater and a pair of boots because I have a date on Saturday and I want to step out of my boundaries (wearing jeans all the time) and wear a skirt.

Well I need to write a new article for growblackhair.net and check my Google ads balance. I plan on using my next Google ads check to pay for the remaining hosting this year so I won’t have to make another payment for 12 months which will be very convenient for me than to have to worry about paying hostgator every month.