In other news… My entry title: I’m DIVORCED people!! LOL! I got my divorce finalized on Wednesday and got child support, half the rental payments for the remainder of the lease, and he is also ordered to return my laptop. I know I will have to go back down to hold him in contempt when my laptop isn’t returned, but who cares! I’m FREE! We celebrated by going out to the nightclub and eating the top tier of the wedding cake. I’m so happy, smiling inside and out, and feeling so GOOD.

Other good news…

I got a raise at work yesterday, so that was a definant plus.

I’m talking to someone new. We had a nice lunch/dinner date last weekend and it was nice. I’ve been out with him before this, but it was more of a friendly outing because my sister and her friend came along. I didn’t even look at him that way back then. I was just having a good time, but I’m glad I met him. He seems like a really nice guy so far and I find him extremly attractive so I guess I’ll see how this goes. Sometimes I wonder where I get the will power to even put myself out there like this. I’m scared, but willing at the same time.

Today I finally got a few days off, so I can now focus on cleaning up the house and getting things in order. My house is a mess. I need to wash the dishes in the kitchen and do laundry. I’ve been so busy caring for my newest addition, tending to my other little ones, and working, that I haven’t had time for much else.

I’ve been very uncomfortable lately regarding my pregnancy. I’ve been having contractions which I guess to be Braxton Hicks contractions. They have been quite painful like a level or 2 above a menstrual cramp. I’ve also been having a load of pressure and sometimes, it hurts just from the baby moving. I can’t wait for this pregnancy to end. I’m tired of being uncomfortable and I can’t stand not having my old figure! I’m used to a flat tummy, smaller breasts, and smaller hips. This is not working for me at all and sometimes I feel so discouraged, nasty, and ugly at times no matter how much people tell me that I’m pretty. I just don’t feel it. I had to spend my entire summer like this, unable to do much of anything fun other than catch a few movies and lunch or dinner somewhere, but as far as enjoying the other festivities of the summer I missed out. Never again. I’ve decided that I am going to get either my tubes tied or the Paraguard IUD until I go into menopause. I will no longer sacrifice my body and life to carry a child for some asshole.

When the second shift staff came on they all decided on who they were going to do and then tried to stick me with whomever they didn’t want to do. How do you all get a choice of whom you want to work with and I don’t? They gave me a client that was currently on her menstrual cycle, whom is also obese and in a wheelchair. The other client has a history of being violent and very argumentative. I can’t get him to do anything. All he does is argue and yell at me. Now why would I want to work with him? So I said to them I couldn’t do the female because I’m pregnant and she’s too heavy. I also asked if I could do an elderly woman instead of the man because even though she’s argumentative I can actually get her to listen to me and do things I tell her (knowing that I’m not required to do anyone by the way). An older lady agreed to switch with me and they(the fat bitches) kept complaining. I’m thinking to myself, what the fuck is the issue? You don’t have to do him or her and you two didn’t switch shit with me so why the fuck are you complaining? Also, during dinner I suggested adding some nutmeg to the brocculi. My mother puts it on her brocculi and it’s delicious. It was only a suggestion and they just dogged me out and made me feel stupid and low for my suggestion. I couldn’t wait to go home Saturday. When I left the room I could feel them talking about me and I hated every bit of it.

So today a girl from first shift was telling me all the things one of the fat bitches was saying about me. She was going on and on about my nutmeg suggestion, complaining because I didn’t want to do the client that was too heavy, and also lying saying I kept saying I didn’t know how to do nothing. This bitch was actually telling the supervisor and everyone else. I guess she figured it would never come back to me, but I work with 98% females so what you say about someone is going to come back STUPID! I did ask her how to do things every time I was confused on something because I’ve only been working there for about a month, but when I heard her complaining about me asking her a question the last time I worked with her I decided to never ask her for help again. This bitch usually works my usual shift of 11-7am, so I’m sure she’ll be there tonight and I won’t being saying a word to that bitch. If she’s there tonight she’s going to know that I don’t like her just from how I’m going to act towards her. I pretty sure her fat ass wouldn’t want anyone to do her like that while she’s pregnant, but I’m going to fix her. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and due to the fact that I’m at risk for preterm labor I will be getting a note stating that I can’t do any heavy lifting. Then when she goes to complaining she’ll have to swallow her own words because I’m not going to jeopardize the health of my baby for ignorant people. I was just telling first shift that morning that I didn’t have an issue with her and liked working with her when they were talking about how much they didn’t like her, but after that afternoon I now see why they don’t like her.

For starters today was my last day at work. I couldn’t take anymore of the drama, and I made it out of there in one piece. Luck me! I also purchased my tiara and a pretty rhinestone and pearl necklace and earring set to go with it. I want my wedding to be as perfect as possible.  We have to make a payment on the hall today and I have to go get our passports next week too. The month of September is going to be the most hectic month because we need to save a load of money and book our Honeymoon too. Then in October we make our final deposits on the hall.

I have so much to do between now and November 20th. I still have to get my niece’s flower girl basket and my son’s ring pillow. We have to order gifts, buy the favors, invites, get our rings engraved, and figure out where rehearsal dinner is going to be held. I also need to make sure my bridesmaids buy their dresses no later than next week. My bestfriend bought her’s today, but my sister hasn’t so now I have to hassle her.

I am so stressed that I was actually considering looking into getting a wedding consultant, but looking at our budget, I don’t think we have room for it. I almost hung up on my sister just from mentioning “rehearsal dinner” , because I was too stressed to want to think about that.