Well I talked to a company about my idea yesterday and they sounded extremly interested in the product. I really believe my product line will do well because there isn’t any out in the market that are easily made available for purchase in stores! By the way I’ve made over $100 with Google so I’m expecting my check any day now and I’m expecting more checks to be rolling in. The first check is going to go strictly towards and then I know the checks will get bigger and bigger as my site gets more popular!

If my hair line is a success I will be making a great deal of cash from that too! This may be my actual break through. Finally I might be able to live comfortably for once without having to struggle and wonder how my bills are going to be paid.

I’m also still waiting on a phone call because I applied for a JCO. The work is difficult, but the pay is decent and I need that type of income so I can support my boys until everything else takes off.

In my love life I met a really nice guy at Walmart, but as soon as he told me about him still living with his baby mother I wasn’t interested anymore. I don’t care if you guys aren’t together you still live together WTF! So he persistantly called me for a little over a week and I finally gave in and talked to him. I wasn’t even interested in him like before, but I thought being friends couldn’t hurt because I’ve been in so many fucked up relationships and I don’t have time for the bullshit anymore. This is my year to be treated with love and respect and like a queen.

So I talked to this guy and we ended up having a lot of things in common and sharing the same interests. He’s really attractive and has the body of a male exotic dancer because he works out so much. After that we started liking each other and spending time together. Now I have some feelings for him and I really don’t want to talk to him anymore. Not because I don’t like him, but because I don’t like the way I feel. Because he still stays with his baby mother it is really and issue and it’s like I can’t hear from him everyday because of the situation because he wants to eliminate drama. I don’t like feeling anxious and upset and if I’m in a relationship and I feel this way 80% of the time then it’s not worth it. He’s a really nice guy and I think he is a good man, but because of his situation I can’t allow it to go any further.

I really wish that I could met someone that would be everything on my list of things I want in the man I want to marry. Why do I keep hooking up with people with problems? Why can’t I met a decent guy that will treat me with love and respect with out all the extra baggage. I’m tired of attracting the wrong type of guys! I’m beautiful, smart, easy going with ambition and goals. I can cook, I work for my own things, I’m a good listener, I love God, but all I get are assholes!