I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my current status and what I do desire and I’ve realized that my current state is not what I want. I don’t want to be living with my Mom and Dad with no job, no transportation, no privacy, and no respect. In my love life I don’t want someone that I can’t see or talk to everday, that has too many barriers, and is moving out the state. I don’t even want to live in Ohio for the rest of my life! So I ask myself, why am I receiving everything I don’t want? What do I want?

I want to have a house, a nice car, and live in a warmer climate. I want a great, fun jcareer that pays me well. I want to own my own business and be successful in that department. I want to be happily married with a man that fills all the qualities of my ideal mate and my ideal relationship. I want my kids to have everything that they need and want and I want to be able to provide these things to them.

I think it’s time for me to start being selfish about what I accept into my life because right now if you were to ask me if I was happy with my situation currently, the answer would be a solid “NO!”. Starting today I have to start cutting people off and letting things ago. It’s about time Samara starts getting what she wants and not what she doesn’t want.