Today was a very ugly, uncomfortable day. It rained all day long. I woke up to crashing sounds of thunder and lightning, along with heavy rain.

This morning I had to go to my son’s pediatrician to pick up his shot record so I could finish enrolling him in school. I then had to drop the copy off at his soon-to-be “first” school and get a packet of everything needed before school starts. It sucked so bad because despite the fact I had an umbrella my dress pants were sticking to my legs because they were wet and my shirt was wet from all the rain. Ugh!

When I got to work I read over my Trainee Report evaluation and they wrote it up like I was this person that is just unreliable and never comes to work! Had they forgotten that I was 9 months pregnant and I have weekly doctor visits along with the weekly therapy appointments that BWC has me attending? Both are important and can’t be missed. They claimed that “they never know when I am going to show up.”

My doctor visits are for the wellbeing of me and my unborn child and the therapy visits are to ensure that I am doing what is needed to continue to receive BWC payments and to recover from my injury.

What am I suppose to do? Every appointment I have ever had I have emailed them so they would know when I will be in and everything is excused.

I explained to Linda and my Case Worker that being that I am in the 9th month of my pregnancy this is common pregnancy protocol to attend the doctor weekly. If I am in pain I WILL leave and I will not cancel my appointments just to be there. I told her if this was really a real job I would be on maternity leave right now and my attendance would not be an issue. I’m not going to put that place over the health of my baby.

It’s just so unfair. I can’t get a damn break. I work so hard and I come there whenever I can. I even come after my doctor visits so I won’t be absent and it still isn’t good enough. I am stretching myself to the limit, with this training, my pregnancy, trying to prepare to move, and getting Elijah ready to start school. When will I get a break? When?!

Do people whom work hard ever get what they worked for?

The MCO claimed if my attendance doesn’t improve they will have to enforce an attendance plan and if I fail to meet the requirements of the plan my case could be closed. Just any reason to make things more difficult than they already are. Any way to try to slow down my progress of moving to Florida.

When will it all stop?